I remember when I was young
My father would always tell me
The world isn't fair, sweetheart
20 years later, I finally understand
I'm back to biting my nails
Back to picking my lips
Back to believing
The voice in my head
I was actually doing well
Coming into this year
I felt motivated
Nothing to fear
But 5 weeks ago
On Sunday night
I went to the ER
I had slipped on ice
The sight of my foot dangling
The nurse saying I'm tough
A failed splint two times
It wasn't enough
The next morning
I got gowned up
Headed for surgery
Best of luck
I've been here before
Recovery post operation
I lost my fight that night
No more motivation
It's the first surgery I've had alone
It was always my parents or my ex
They got me through the days
Told me to hold up my head
I've lost track of the days
Time blurs together
My mind loses itself
Especially in the shower
I'm losing myself again
Along with the light I held
I'm consumed by darkness
In my personal hell
My friends are all so busy
They've got their own lives
I can creep in the shadows
With a frown that's all mine
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Frozen Feelings
PoetryThis book outlines the pain I experienced in my past and the things that I look back on. These are my greatest fears and worst moments. I'm not writing this for the public, but for myself
