This is like CIU. The group EXO doesn't exist and the members are soloists, except for EXO-SC.
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Although it has been three years since my husband passed away, the pain of losing him still haunted my heart every single day. I still cry myself to sleep, space out thinking about those times I'd see him around the place, just simply missing the man of my dreams.
"I'm sorry it took me so long," I told my brother, Jongin, as soon as I got inside my apartment. "You know that the longer the pain stays, the longer I have to be with the psychiatrist."
"I understand, baby sis." he walks up to me, only to pat the my head. I glared at my brother for that and got his cute chuckles as an answer.
"Is he awake?"
Before I could even turn my head to see it for myself, a little boy was already seen running towards my direction.
"Eomma!"
I crouched down and spread my arms to greet my son with a warm hug. He throws himself at me, wrapping his small arms around my neck. I stood up and carried him in my arms.
"You missed me that much, my love?"
Jihun nods his head as he nestled his face on the crook of my neck, inhaling my flowery scent that he love so much.
Just like what Sehun does every time he sees me.
And that's why I'm trying my best to heal myself from the pain of losing Sehun - by going to the psychiatrist. I've been receiving treatment since Sehun died and still receiving so I can take care of Jihun wholeheartedly. My suffering doesn't seem to help me being the best mother to the only piece of Sehun left in this world: our Jihun.
I turned to Jongin and saw him staring at us with a complacent look on his handsome face. I know what he's thinking and feeling about seeing me suffering from this heartbreak for three years now. He's the most lovable brother to ever exist and made sure I won't feel sad by always being here for me.
"Oppa..." I batted my eyelashes and pouted a little.
"You know you can just say it." he slightly rolls his eyes and scoffed. I never call Jongin to 'oppa' although he's my older brother. When I do, it means I have a huge favor to ask.
"Sehun's death anniversary is coming up. I'm..." I suddenly hesitated. As it has been years, my psychiatrist told me to try seeing that place to see if it still affects me.
"Baby,"
"I know, Nini. I want to see if I'm completely fine now." I felt Jihun flinching in my arms. "Can you go with me to watch over Jihun? I want to introduce him to Sehun afterwards."
Jongin sighs. "I'll cancel my plans for that day." he leans in for a quick kiss on my forehead and a loving caress on the back of my head followed.
"Thanks Jongin, you're the best brother in the whole world. I'm sorry for asking such huge favor despite your schedules and for looking after Jihun today."
"Anything for my baby sister."
And this is another reason to heal myself, so I can repay and take care of the people who were around me when I needed the love and comfort I lost along with losing Sehun.
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I never thought I'd have the courage to drag myself to the place I avoided the most in this world, after seeing how Sehun took his last breath right before my eyes on that very same place.
