Dinner Break's part 2! The first one's scenes were inspired from the drama 'Dinner Mate' but in this one, only the title is inspired from the same drama hahahshshshs.
Lmao. Why am I being so talkative? Let's proceed!
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I never liked eating alone. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, and whenever I feel hungry... I always had someone to join me. It boosts my appetite while I'm having a good time with someone and munching the foods I like the most. Jongin and I started as dinner mates, a term I came up with after that very night of our first encounter ever. We didn't like eating alone that we ended up sitting across each other and sharing a table.
Ever since Jongin dumped me because he grew tired seeing me eat, he hated eating with me, and that our once favorite time of the day turned into a duty for him instead... I learned how to value eating alone with the fear that whoever joins me or sees me, will hate me too, soon. Just like Jongin. I'm now conscious with how I look like when munching some food or even letting a candy melt inside my mouth, it was as if I'm walking on a thin sheet of ice.
My fellows would ask me to join them for lunch but I'd always make excuses that I already had eaten or I'm waiting for someone. When I'm hungry, I'd lock the door of my office and eat alone. At home, I had the lights off so I wouldn't see any of my reflection or shadow somewhere while eating. It's better in that way so the trauma Jongin brought to me will never haunt me.
"Do you want to have dinner with me?"
Ever since... I swore to never let someone see me eat or agree to eat with them.
"No."
Baekhyun tensed on his seat after hearing my answer.
"I don't eat with someone." I avoided his eyes and flipped the documents over to fix it. "You can leave, there's nothing wrong with you."
One of his hands found his nape and scratched it shyly. "I thought it would be easy since you're my fan."
That made me heave out a short breathy laugh. "Nothing in this world is easy, even if you're my idol." I left my seat and stomped my way to the door, then opening it. "Leave."
"Y/n-"
"Just leave Baekhyun!" I quickly covered my mouth after realizing that I had raised my voice at him.
Jeane barges in who probably thought something happened after hearing me yell. "Is something wrong here?"
I sighed and looked away from Baekhyun, sitting straight out of shock. "Show him out, please."
"This way, sir."
I couldn't look at him as he started walking out of the room with his eyes stilling over my figure. My breathing slowed down and my chest felt tight. Once the door closed, I broke down clutching the fabric that's covering my chest with my knees trembling.
"Calm down Y/n." taking deep breaths and then tapping my chest as form of comfort, I added. "No one's going to see you eat."
For someone, it may seem like I'm over reacting over a break-up and its reason but it's not just about looking pretty while eating, but the trust that I once had to those who've seen me eat, had been long gone. I can't trust the people around me right now. Just like Jongin, they might be holding themselves back to say how much they hate seeing me eat with them. That's how the break-up affected my whole being.
