His Worth | MxM

twenty six

"Why'd you leave earlier and not come back until it was time to go?"

I heard Worth ask me that while I made something to eat. It wouldn't be good if I was to state the real reason. I really am not interested in saying anything on the subject. What good does that do me? Besides...hurting my heart?

"It doesn't matter. It doesn't matter what I did, as long as things are going good on your end when it comes down to the investigation, that's all that matters." I tell him, looking over my shoulder at him.

He didn't look like he liked that answer at all. Didn't really matter to me because I had my reasons for not telling him.

It was best I keep it that way.

"Hearing you say that...doesn't sound right." He shook his head, looking saddened. "I just feel like there's more to it than that, you know?"

"I don't know, not at all." I look back forward, setting down the stuff I was making as I was now frustrated. "Please...just don't ask me about such a thing. Just be happy we've come this far in shutting that prison down. Can't that be enough?"

"Not at all because you're sad about something. We must be happy about this together and it's not the same when...you're not acting like you." Worth clears his throat, soon grinning. "I know ever since I said all that shit it hasn't been the same, but I am sorry. I'm sorry by the tenfold. Though I don't think your sad about that anymore. You began to look worse when I was speaking to your parents. I still...am not sure why."

I don't say anything. I forgot that he was good at looking at his surroundings and picking things up, to a certain degree.

Of course he wants to start noticing now-.

"And then Tyrese followed you out. I don't know...why, but he came back and he looked like his feelings were hurt. I don't know what happened but I'm going to assume... Did he ask you out?"

My eyes widen on Worth, and he waited curiously. The fact that he assumed I was upset because of that is just beyond me.

"No, he didn't. He was seeing to see if I was okay." I just tell him now, shaking my head at his assumption.

Now there was just silence, more awkward silence on his end especially with how he was standing. I wish it didn't have to be like this but...I don't know. Something is keeping me locked in on the words he said.

Maybe I'm the issue because I simply won't forgive and move on. He's apologized, but it still hurts...what he said to me.

"Why would he need to do that? You told me you were fine, was that a lie-?"

"Of course it was a lie! I'm not fine, I haven't been fine since you spouted that shit to me!" I shout at him now.

Worth's eyes divert off of me, but he regained himself as he cleared his throat.

"I...I assumed that, but I didn't want to bring it up-."

"Well, you should've." I snap, no longer hungry anymore. "I'm offended, you...offended me. You said that shit in front of everyone and you disrespected me, when all I did was help you. I can't let it go, and I know I should; but I just can't stop hearing your fucking words!"

I groan, leaning against the counter as I slide down to the floor. Worth crouched before me as he gripped my shoulders, looking at me sadly.

"I made a mistake and now I'm dealing with the consequences. What I said...was foul-."

"Very...foul." I interrupt him again, trying to pull out of his grip, but he held onto me firmly.

"I don't want us to stay like this. I miss being able to do what I once did, but I fucked it up with what I said. It was a part of the trauma, but I can't just blame that anymore. I can't blame destiny because I chose what I said. Having been in there and seeing what you all are trying to do for me...just shows that I really have been abused all my life. Just when I meet someone good, I say such things out of fear and ignorance... I'm sorry, once again. You deserve to still be mad at me, I don't blame you." Worth explains softly.