When I Can't Do Anything Else

Don't Want to See You Right Now

This peculiar feeling is nibbling the filaments of my mind,
Strung around, watching us construct our summer gardens,
Like an absent guitar sound, strumming in the background,
Something that can't be knocked out,
Can't wash the dirt on our hands now, can we?

It's eating its way to my core, and I'm whistling at the rhythm in each bite,
I'm a local native in my city, scared of my own streetlights
Visiting me is wrong choice, and a knock in the door could point arrows at me,

I don't want to see you right now,
There's nothing to achieve,
Even if you reap what you sow,
Don't come and deceive,

I can tell by the way I look now,
All grayish, the color of an unborn sky,
I was technicolor, I was everything light,
But you came, and rang the doorbell,
Set the fire alight,

I don't have to see you right now,
Please close the door,
I'm in a proverbial low,
And my heart can't take this anymore,

There it is, can't you see it in my eyes?
I have this unbecoming darkness when I set my sight on you, and everything just churns inside,
So, stop it, don't come near me,
I'm in a hospital bed of flowers, and they're dyed black because of you,
I can't, I can't,

Let me rest,
I'm sorry, don't try to reach for the doorknob,

I don't want to see you right now

//k.u.