Hatred [Haylor AU]

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CHAPTER 37:
Thanksgiving's gifts.

{UNEDITED}
Days by days had past. It's thanksgivings today. Harry and I still ignored each other. Before, this is all I wanted. Acting like strangers. But now, I'm just not so sure anymore. Harry seems fine, by us not talking. It was as if he wasn't affected at all and to be truthful, It's driving me nuts. Our table in the cafeteria stays noisy, which is good. The last thing I need is to fight with Karlie again. The only thing different is Harry and I no longer bicker.

Karlie apologized for butting into my problems without knowing the whole story and I apologized for not telling her about it. So we're good.

And if you're wondering about the math test. Surprisingly, Harry got an A. He might've been lying to me about not being able to do maths well or he found himself a last minute tutor. My score, on the other hand, was a grade lower than Harry. But overall, I'm proud he got an A. I didn't congratulate him though, because of our ignoring stuff going on and it's awkward anyways.

At first, I was always affected by Harry. Truth is, I'm not used to not having him around. All my life, even if we aren't always in best terms. He's one of those people who can actually cheer me up. And it took all this years for me to realize he was never an enemy. He's just a childhood friend of mine who annoys me to the core. But he was never my sworn enemy.

But after the whole ignoring thing. He kinda turned into one. Not the pranking kind of enemy. It's more like the 'we don't talk anymore' kind of enemy.

My best friends have been encouraging me to talk to Harry and work things out. At this point, I don't even know who's wrong and who's right anymore. Was it me? For pushing him away? Or was it him? For leaving? Or stealing kisses? Or beating up my best bud? Or punching me?

My best friends had come to a point where they told me Harry Styles kinda likes me. Which is hard to believe. But honestly, it kinda makes sense. After all, he did punch Calvin because I kissed him and let's not forget he kissed me. Maybe he was jealous. The thought of that makes me smile a little.

But I can't let my hopes rise and at the end I'd be humiliated for thinking he would ever like me. Truth is, I'm scared. And I just want to fix things. But if he did like me, why would he fucking leave?

Nothing made sense right now.

Should I apologize? On this case, I have two mindsets, one, to hear my best friend's advice and apologize to harry. Two, ignore him until the end of senior year.

I'm not going to lie but the first option actually seems like the right thing to do. But, I've gotten used to ignoring him by now so I don't think there will be that much affect on me if I continued ignoring me. Besides, he should man up a little and just you know apologize first.

I let out a loud groan. Damn, this is so confusing. Where's google when I need to solve problems. I actually did search 'how to apologize' but it doesn't seem to help at all.

It goes like this:
Step 1: Express Remorse
Step 2: Admit Responsibility.
Step 3: Make Amends.
Step 4: Promise That it Won't Happen Again.

and then they explained every step. In my case, we don't even know who's wrong and who's right. He's obviously wrong for punching. Even if he punched me by accident, punching someone is still not the right thing to do. And am I wrong for pushing him away or kissing Calvin?

"Taylor!" I could hear my mom shouting my name from across the room.

"I'm inside my room, mom!" I shouted back.