An Honest Mistake

Chapter 26

Chapter 26 - Can't happen

Nanatili akong nakatitig kay Theon and he was staring back at me. Binalot ulit kami ng katahimikan nang sabihin niya iyon. I'm shocked. Those years were wasted. We wasted so much time.

"Maybe you were right. Hindi nga ako ganito noon. I wasn't like this before cause Rence wasn't making a move before! What's happening now is different, Freya. Hindi ko kaya!" Matigas na sabi ni Theon.

Hindi ako sumagot. Humarap si Theon sa dashboard at nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita.

"Kuntento na ko sa nakikita ka ng mga mata ko sa araw-araw even though you have this fucking attraction towards my cousin. Then one morning, you're suddenly gone." He muttered, his grip tightening on the steering wheel. "Lawrence started asking me questions about your whereabouts. Gusto ka niyang hanapin. He wants to give it a shot with you. You don't know how scared I was!"

"I kept praying... Na sana hindi ka mahanap ni Lawrence. I want to be the first one who gets to see you."

Bumaling ulit si Theon sakin. He let go of the steering wheel at ginagap ang kamay ko. He held on my hands tightly, scared of letting go. Takot na kapag binitawan niya pa ang kamay ko ay maglalaho ako ng parang bula. Just like what happened when I left him.

"You don't know how hard it was for me so don't put words in my mouth." Malamig nitong sabi.

Natahimik ako. Hindi ko na alam kung anong maaaring sabihin kay Theon. Sinabi ko ang nasa isip ko kanina and now he's doing the same. 

Umalpas ang isang butil ng luha mula sa mata ko. Theon heaved a sigh and placed his hand on my cheek gently.

"You're so unfair." Aniya at pinunasan ang pisngi. "You're always giving Lawrence his chances. Paano ako, Freya?"

"I'm sorry, Theon. Hindi ko alam." I managed to say.

Tumango lang si Theon at nilagay ang kamay sa batok ko para ilapit ako sa kanya. I felt his lips on my forehead na nagpapikit sakin. He hugged me after and I just let him. This is what I wanted few years ago. To be with my best friend was what I wanted few years ago pero ngayon, I only want what's best for my daughter.

Binitiwan ako ni Theon nang maramdaman kong kumalma na siya. He doesn't look calm nang mag-simula siyang ilabas ang sama ng loob niya sakin. I feel sorry even though I shouldn't dahil wala naman akong kasalanan. It was a big misunderstanding between us. Naghihintayan kaming dalawa which ended up nowhere.

I got out of his car but he stayed inside. Binaba niya na lang ang bintana ng sasakyan sa side niya.

"Ingat ka, Theon. Salamat sa pag-hatid." Ani ko.

He nodded, not bothering to look at me. "I'll pick you up tomorrow morning." Aniya.

Tumango na lang din ako sa sinabi niya at nag-paalam na sa kanya. I was waiting for him to leave pero hindi niya pa pinapaandar ang makina ng sasakyan. He was just looking straight, breathing deeply na parang ang bigat-bigat ng dinadala niya sa dibdib niya.