Give me love ( a yuzuru hanyu fanfic) UNDER MAJOR EDITING

You Again

A/N: I just wanted to add a quick disclaimer here that Charlie is a character whom is based off my own experiences with figure skating, love, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, and  panic attacks. 

Ever since we got to Japan, the two of us haven't spoken a word to each other. Well more like I haven't spoken to him..

"Charlie-chan, please talk to me?" He asks pulling on my sleeve again 

Maybe it was a bad thing to get into this relationship so fast....I'm only going to hurt him aren't I?

I go to leave our shared room, when Yuzu bursts from his spot on the bed and blocks my way from leaving

"Charlie-chan, I'm not letting you leave without an explanation" He says crossing his arms

I can't keep hiding from him anymore

I need to tell him

"I don't want to hurt you, Yuzu..." I trail off quietly 

"Why would you hurt me?" he asks, stepping closer to me

"Because I don't want you to find out screwed up I am and then get to invested to the point where you can't leave. I'm not normal.." I say sadly, suddenly wishing I could take back what I said

Now I have to explain

"What do you mean?" he asks grabbing my hands in his

Anxiety 

I think having a boyfriend, pushes my anxiety further. I now feel like I need to fit his standards and be someone he wants me to be

 That's why I don't want to meet his family because family tends to change someones influence on the person they're dating. I don't want his family to realize I'm not good for him

"I have anxiety Yuzu, and depression" I say quietly

That's why my mind races with the worst thoughts

That's why I'm afraid of what people think of me

That's why I hate meeting new people 

That's why I try to avoid being around people as much as I can, but with this career I can't

"Charlie-chan, I love you so much. I really do. I might not understand what you're going through but I will always stick by your side no matter what. We can get through this together. I love you because you're strong, talented, smart, beautiful, and the most amazing person I have ever met" he tells me, pulling me into a warm embrace

I hug him back and then pull his face to mine so our foreheads are touching. I can see the sincerity in his eyes; he's telling the truth 

"I love you so much Yuzu-kun. Thank you" I tell him 

"Don't ever doubt my love for you, Charlie-chan. No one's ever made me feel the way you do" he says

Suddenly all my feelings ignite as he presses his soft lips to mine, pulling me closer by the waist. His kisses always leave me filling full again, like nothing bad will ever happen to me again

"I love you so much", He says, "Don't ever think you are lesser than you are" 

"Loving you was the best decision I've ever made, Yuzu-kun" 

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The short program is about to start and I'm back dressed in my white dress for Ave Maria. Yuzu is decked out in his purple costume with the little decorated vest. He looks absolutely adorable with his hair slicked back