One Girl's Words

Letters Of Angst

Fear, fear,
You're always near.
Holding me back,
Whispering doubts in my ear.
Fear, fear,
You've made it so clear.
That I'm just a slave,
To your nightmares and
Tears.
~
There's always someone watching,
Mocking every tear,
Laughing at every mistake,
Searching every crack in your barely broken heart.
I just want to cry,
But I cannot
Hide.
Sometimes I find salvation
Amongst the dark days,
Just so you can tell me it's all okay.
But okay doesn't last forever,
And I wish it could be better.

It can be hard sometimes.
When you're running uphill,
When a war is raging,
And you're stuck on one page.
Sometimes I need help,
But the voices all
Contradict,
And I don't know what to believe.
When will my scars get better?

Sometimes I forget why I run away,
What harm would happen if for once I stayed?
But my reminder is lurking,
In the shadows they've left behind.
I'm caught up in the storm behind their minds,
And it feels like I just need to
Escape.
You tell me I should know better.

It been a long time,
Since I last smiled at the mirror.
But now it's becoming,
Just a little bit clearer.
Why should I fess up,
To the mess you've once again
Blamed on me?
I never have anything to say.
But I'm learning,
Taking baby steps every
Day.
I now know better.
~
Fear, fear,
If I could please be sincere.
You're not exactly the monster,
With which you appear.
Fear, fear,
You'll always be here.
And I may not be fearless,
But courage will always
Persevere.
A/N: My submission for the second task in the Serenity Writers Poetry Contest. There are four tasks, and each task will have a winner selected, who will then compete in a final task. The first task was won by the amazing @LunaSheep.
The topic for the second task is 'Your Biggest Fear', and this is how I interpreted that. I hope you like it, and wish me luck! :)
Thanks for reading, vote and/or comment if you enjoyed it and please check out the Serenity Writers Poetry Competition. <3