little does he know

stuck in my mind

stars POV:

marco entered the house around about 2 in the morning , he walked pass my room walking into walls and yawning. little did he know how i was breaking why he fell asleep . *one new notification* i chose to ignore it. i didn't want to be hurt again. i tried to sleep and think about what a crazy dream this was , but the more i thought about it , the more it became a reality. the rest of the night i didn't sleep well . i was worried that what happened on the cyber videos online would happen to me. i could hear Marco typing away on twitter and i knew that because when ever he started typing i would get a notification. 'Marco shut up' i said quietly into my pillow . thats all i could remember from last night, thats it .

i woke up feeling pretty good , like nothing had happened . it felt great- *27 notifications* FFUUUUCCCCKKKK. i open the texts . 'hey dumb ass , see your still alive' 'jus saw Marco , he better be careful' 'dumb slut' etc...... ok , that great feeling was gone , and i sat on the floor crying into my hands . UGH THIS SSSSSSSSHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTT why me , what have i ever done ?

the ride to school wasn't as bad , i sat in the back with alex and janna and listened to there problems. 'hey star ? we never ask if you have your own problems , do you ?'alex asked grabbing my hand. i opened my mouth but no works came out . marco was looking back at me struggle . he looked so cute STAR WTF IS WRONG WITH U STOP. As we walked off the bus , i got more notifications "wow someones popular" janna said "no its just my over protective mom" i said hiding my phone. we still had 30min till lesson started so i walked to the liberty with janna. "so janna who is your arm?" i asked "its getting better" janna replied rubbing her arm , her self harm marks were closing up. "janna , i want to make sure yo never do this again , so give me the blades or anything you do it with." she passes me all of it . *23 notifications* "star you are really popular" janna said laughing "yea" i said fake laughing . as the 15 min warning bell went off janna walked to her home room . i walked to the bathroom to touch up on my make up and check my phone . 'CAN U NOT TAKE A HINT KILL YOUR SELF' 'SAW JANNA GAVE U BLADES , DO IT' i looked at them in my pocket , it was kinda calling my name 'DO IT OR ILL POST THIS VIDEO' the video was me admitting i had a crush on marco. so i did it . i know it was wrong but it made me focus on my pain , not the bully . "STAR BUTTERFLY WHERE ARE YOU!" i hurd marco yell . i ran out "I'm here marco don't worry" "oh well the school flooded so we have to go home" i look at him "oh ok"

marcos pov :

as star and i walked home , we just talked about how it could of happened "maybe the pool over filled" star said holing her books . i look at her and her books "so star your reading the boy at the bus stop" i asked looking at her books , she moves them so she could look down "oh yea i guess" she said dulling down. he sleeve fell down a little which had me shook , there were cuts , deep cuts . i looked up a her but didn't mention anything , i meant could of been a cut or our puppies , that has nothing that would make her self harm , right?