Just Another Bad Boy

40. Dont get mad

Trevor's POV:

Ella has been acting weird. She seemed like something was bothering her but she didn't want to tell me. When she arrived at lunch she looked beyond mad but shrugged me off when I asked her what was wrong.

She didn't really speak to me all period and the second the bell rang she dragged Caitlynn off to their free period without even a goodbye. I didn't think I did anything to make her mad so I don't want to push her to tell me what is going on but I wished that she felt like she could tell me.

I walked into the last period of the day. I didn't really know if she still planned on hanging out after school with me but I hoped she still did. No matter what mood she was in I wanted to be there for her.

"Hey." I greeted her not really knowing what to say to her.

She smiled at me.

"We still hanging out after this?" I asked her.

A part of me was expecting her to say no even though I wanted nothing more than for her to say yes.

"Of course." She grinned.

She leaned over and gave me a quick kiss before pulling her notebook out and getting ready for class to start. The kiss had completely taken me off guard. Ella wasn't one to kiss in public. She always pushed me away whenever I tried to sneak a kiss in the halls or when we were out anywhere. To have her initiate one was completely out of character for her.

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"I have to stop and grab something from my locker, I'll meet you in the lot?" Ella asked once we walked out of the class.

"I can walk you." I offered.

"It's fine, I'll only be a couple minutes." She shook her head.

Before I could even say anything she was already walking off.

What was going on with her?

"What's going on in that head?" Zach asked giving me a confused look.

"Should I be worried about her?" I glanced at where she went.

"If you think you should be." He shrugged.

"You're so helpful." I rolled my eyes.

"Seriously if you think there should be something to be worried about I'd listen to that part of you." He said seriously.

I nodded. I knew there was something going on. I wasn't stupid, I could tell she was acting differently. There was something bothering her, every time I was with her it's like her head is somewhere else. I didn't understand what had happened. She had seemed fine this morning when I had talked to her.

"I have to talk to her, I don't want to push her to tell me but I can't just sit around and pretend I don't notice that she seems like she is upset about something."

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I watched as she flipped through the options trying to find the movie she wanted to watch. She had barely talked to me since I got here. She been so focused on finding a movie and planning our afternoon she hadn't stopped to just be with me. She wasn't letting herself even stop and relax.

"How about this one?" She asked stopping at a movie.

I looked at the title and nodded.

I didn't mind watching a comedy special. She occasionally was in the mood to watch a stand-up special and I never turned them down. Sometimes you just need to have a good laugh and who was I to deny her of that?

"Before we start it can I ask you something?" I said.

I didn't want to make her more upset but I wanted to try to help her with whatever she was going through.

"Anything." She nodded.

"Are you ok? You've been acting strange and I just want to make sure you are good." I reached out and took her hand in mine.

"I'm fine Trevor." She flashed me a smile.

If she hadn't done that I might have let it go but the second she forced the smile on her face I could immediately see right through it. She looked the exact opposite of fine.

"We both know you're lying." I sighed.

"Don't get mad ok?"

That made me instantly on edge. What was she about to say to me?

"I won't." I promised.

No matter what I'd try to stay calm. I had no clue what she was going to say but I didn't want to make her feel like she couldn't tell me things.

"So the other day I was paired up in my English class with one of my exes, Holden. It was just for essay revisions so that's why I didn't tell you because it didn't seem important. He had tried to talk to me but I tried my best to just keep it to the assignment but damn he was stubborn. We didn't end up finishing it in the class so he took my paper with him and gave it back to me today. When he was giving it back to me he confessed that he missed me and wanted to get back together." She confessed.

I just sat there. I told her I wouldn't get mad but who the fuck did he think he was?

"What did you say?" I hoped I knew the answer but she had been acting strange all day so I really needed her to ease my mind.

"I told him that I would never get back with him. Trevor you got to understand that I'd never do that to you." She squeezed my hand slightly.

I nodded. I knew she wouldn't hurt me like that but I just needed to hear it.

"Do you still have feelings for him?" I couldn't help but have those doubts.

She seemed so bothered by the whole thing I couldn't help but think it might be because there are still feelings there.

"You shouldn't have to ask me that." She frowned.

"Just please answer the question." I pleaded.

I knew that if I didn't hear her distinctly say it I'd have this voice in the back of my head feeding me doubts.

"Of course I don't. He was a piece of shit and I don't have feelings for him anymore. I have moved on, there is no part of me that still cares about him. You are the only guy I have feelings for."

She had said the words I had already knew were true. I knew in my heart that that was the answer but I think I just needed her to voice it. I didn't want to have any doubts in my mind.

"Good because you're the only girl I have feelings for too." I pulled her closer to me and kissed her.

I wanted to show her how much she meant to me. I was sick of the fights and doubts. From now on things were going to be better. I just knew that things were going to go up from here on out.

A/n:

I've started painting to try to help my mental state and it's been really great. I've felt super overwhelmed and kinda crazy lately so I started painting more. I want to give myself some serious me time and I have been feeling better. I don't know if it's a real fix but I am willing to try whatever to get myself in a better place.

Anyway I hope you enjoyed this chapter and if you did don't forget to comment and vote.

-Cora Leigh