Not Just A Lover (SEQUEL)

Chapter 22

I lay back even more into the bathtub so my head is slightly above the water.

"Alexa!" She says with a voice crack
"Play Slow Dancing In The Dark By Joji " Y/N says as it starts to play. I catch a quick glimpse of her washing her hair in the shower before quickly diverting my eyes to the water before me. As the music plays I start to slip under water.

(Play Video )

I'm a monster....aren't I ...but I love her so much
Her hair
Eyes
Smile
Body
Laugh
Personality

And what do I have to offer.....

Choking her

Traumatising her permanently

Being an asshole
Acting like every other guy she knows

I just hope she doesn't leave me

Please.....

Please......
Please God....

Your POV
Is love even real anymore
How do I know he's not lying to me

What if he wants to hurt me again

How can I trust him..
How can I trust anyone

(Stop Vid)

I turn off the shower and grab my towel while Shawn lays under water. It looks like he's dead or drowning himself but would I be better off without him?

Fuck what am I thinking?
I need sleep

"Shawn" I say walking up to the bathtub and he raises his head
"I'm fine I was just relaxing....I'm done anyways" Shawn says with red eyes
"Oh ok" I reply blankly before going into the bedroom to get changed.

30 mins later...
I'm curled up in bed and feel Shawn come up behind me and cuddle me softly.
"I'm so sorry" he whispers before kissing my cheek. I'm not sure if he knew I was awake but his kiss felt warm and genuine.

"Kiss me again" I whisper back
"What?" He says shocked
" I said kiss me aga-" I try to say but his lips connect to mine with a fiery passion.
(Play video again if you want...it just matches the mood)

My hand moves down towards his boxers as I place my hand under his waistband.
"Oh fuck" He groans quietly as my hands play with his member. His kisses move from my jaw to my neck.
"Oww" I say due to the slight pain in my neck
"Fuck I'm sorry" he apologises
"It's ok" I reply as he begins to kiss my inner thighs moving closer and closer to my area.

His tongue finally goes where I want it to go and the pleasure is too much for me to handle.
"Shaaawwwnn" I scream
"Do you want me to stop?" He says quickly popping his head up
"No it felt good" I say and he continues
"I fucking love you" He whispers when trying to catch his breath. The room was lit up by the moon's mere light that was a mixture of white and purple.
"Fuck" I moan
"I-I lo-" I start to say under my breath but I couldn't spit the words out.