14 & Pregnant Season TWO

Part 69

Yn Pov
So tonight is my show. My fashion designers had me in a black romper with lace long sleeves and lace tights. I had on some black heels and my hair was puffed out as usual. My makeup was natural and I had on diamond earrings.

When everyone was finished getting ready we prayed and since lourdes was here she did the countdown. My dancers and background singers had to rush to the stage to get set in their spots. That gave me a little time to chill. I rehearsed one of tonight's song choices. I kept doing it over and over and over again. Lourdes was sitting on Drew's lap watching me. My camera crew was in my dressing room too recording. I was pacing the floor rehearsing my part. Something in my voice just didn't sound right. So I stopped to take a quick sipe of my water. After that I went over my words again. I still didn't feel right with the way my voice is sounding so I went to look for my manager. I literally ran looking for her, the camera crew right behind me, because it was almost show time. I found her backstage talking to the light mens.

Yn-*Walks up to her* Something's not right.

I was breathing real hard because I was beyond nervous.

Manager- What do you mean?

Yn- I'm hoarse. Can't you hear it.

I started pacing again.

Manager- Wait hold on. Just have a seat.

She pulled up a chair and I sat.

Manager- What happen between this morning and now?

Yn- I don't know!....What am I going to do?

Manager- It's way too late to cancel...... Just go out there and give it your all. I mean, your Yn. You could sit and stare for a whole hour and they still would cheer you own. *Chuckles*

Yn- *Giggles* Ok.. I'll be back. I need to go get Lourdes and Drew.

On my way back to my dressing room I talked to the cameras.

Yn- *Walking* Its times like this that I hate........ You always want to give your fans a good show.. When your not at your best.. Where's the show? Usually when I get out there onstage I don't think about nothing. Knowing that I'm hoarse is just going to pull my attention away from my fans because you think about "What if I mess up", "What if I sound horrible" . Some how some way I have to forget about it for 60 mins. And that's hard.

I made it to my dressing room.

Yn- Come on its show time.

Lo-*Hops up* Ok mommy.

Lourdes skipped all the way out the door without me and drew. She's going to stop because she doesn't know her way around here.

Drew got up and walked over to me. When he got there he put his arm around me and we walked out.

Drew- Are you ok? You did a 50 yard dash out of nowhere. *Chuckles*

Yn- I had to go find my manager.. Vocal problems.

Drew got serious then.

Drew- Vocal problems?

Yn- I'm hoarse. Can't you tell.

Drew- Well now that you told me. Yes.

Yn- I'm scared.

Drew- Don't be. You'll be fine. I have faith. How about you sang me a verse from your song.

Yn- Ok.

I cleared my throat.

Yn- *Sings* I woke up like dis.. I woke up like dis. We flawless.