i will always come back to you

dont leave me

i facetimed josh like he asked.
i was shaking with nerves.
i hope this goes well.

he answered the phone almost straight away.

he sat there. staring at me.
he looked upset.
but more angry then upset.

"hey baby" i said

"hi" he said bluntly

"so, you wanted to talk" i said

he nodded

"it's about, uh that picture on cynthias account"

"right" i said back  "she deleted it-"

he cut me off.

"listen ness. i know we arent on the same tour and everything but i thought we could trust each other not to fuck around with other people"

"josh" i said "im not fucking around with other people"

"it doesnt look like that" he said

"so do you want me to explain myself you or are you just gonna keep making assumptions?" i said angrily

"it just hurts that you would do that. and with jaden. that's my bestfriend."

"josh you arent listening" i said

"so first chase, now jaden, quin better watch out" he said

my mouth dropped and i could feel the tears ready to fall down my face.

i looked up and saw cynthia about to scream at him. she kept it quiet but i knew she was angry and wanted to scream at josh.

"you- you cant blame chase on me. i had no control over that!"

"yeah but-"

"no buts josh" i said

"okay fine then. what about jaden??"

"hes just my bestfriend. you know that" i said "neither of us would ever do that to you"

he shrugged.

"this is just fucking dumb. you know i wouldn't do that!" i said my voice breaking a bit

he shook his head.
"i dont know if i do"

tears streamed down my cheeks and i couldnt hold them back

cynthia couldnt hold it in anymore and ran over to me.

"what the fuck is wrong with you!!?" she yelled at him

he didnt reply

"you are being a fucking dick" she said "dont lie. you know ness wouldnt do that to you"

"can you leave. im tryna talk to her"

"fuck that. you are literally just tearing her down. what kinda boyfriend does that!"

i was still sitting there with tears pouring down my face.

"be back" i said to cynthia quietly

i walked over to get some tissues to wipe my tears.

then quinton walked through the door. without jaden. thank god.

if jaden walked in it would be the worst timing.

"ness" he said and ingulfed me in a hug

i cried even more

"cyn texted me. i made jaden wait in bryce's room" he said

"yeah, thankyou" i said

"i gotta get back to the call" i said

quinton walked over with me

"cynthia just fucking leave. you're being over the top" he said

"im just defending my bestfriend from her own boyfriend cause hes being a fucking dick" she said

quinton walked over to the camera

"sort out your girlfriend" josh said

"shes doing a good job" quin said and cynthia smiled

i got back into the camera.

"you're back" he said

i nodded

"look. just next time tell me when you do shit like this" he said

"josh it's not like that. you know its not we just fell asleep last night when we were watching a movie"

"ness. dont you get it. i dont believe you right now. it feels like you are lying to my face"

"you know i wouldnt-"

"just. when you are done hoeing around with my bestfriends, call me"

he hung up and i turned my phone off.

quin and cyn sat there not knowing what to do.

as soon as he hung up i started crying again. the tears would not stop.

i got into bed and fell asleep crying. i didnt feel like being awake and dealing with anything. so being asleep was the best it was gonna get.

i woke up and heard cynthia and quinton.

"should i get jaden?" cyn asked

"no that will just make it worse. i will talk to him" quin replied

"okay"

"we just gotta be there for her. im gonna go talk to jade now"

"okay. bye love you" she said

"love you" he said and kissed her before leaving the room

i sat up and went on my phone.

"hey baby" she smiled

"hey" i said

"how ya feeling"

i just shrugged.

cynthia stayed with me all day and quinton soon came back without jaden.

we watched a movie together and didn't say much.

after the movie we made quinton drive us to get icecream.

we got to the shop and we ordered our ice cream and waited.

while we were waiting a little girl came up to us.

"is it true. you cheated on josh?"

"wha- what. no!!"

"it's okay. i believe you. but goodluck making everyone else believe you too" she said

she walked off and i sat there in confusion.

we drove home and i got back into bed. i was back on instagram when i found a post that made me understand what that little girl and the ice cream shop was talking about.