i will always come back to you

the text

i woke up and everyone was already up and getting ready for the day.

i sat up and grabbed my phone

"cmon ness. you need to get up and get ready" quinton said

"i cant" i said

"yes you can" he said

i shook my head

"i dont wanna" i said

"cmon" he said and picked me up and took me to my suitcase

"get an outfit" he said pointing at my suitcase on the ground

"ok" i nodded and bent down to grab the first outfit that i saw

"perfect. now go and put it on" he said pushing me into the bathroom and closing the door.

i got into it and walked out

"okay now sit down. cyn will do your makeup" he said

cynthia just did a little bit of makeup like i would and then went back to doing hers

"you look amazing" she said putting highlighter on her cheeks

"okay now" q said "i can brush your hair"

"i can brush my own hair" i said

"it's okay" he said and started brushing my hair aggressively

"owww!!" i yelled

"beauty is pain" he said and i laughed a bit

"give it" i said grabbing the hair brush and brushing my hair gently

"my bad" he said and laughed too

i was ready and me cyn jaden and q were all walking down to the bus.

"thankyou" i said to q

he smiled

"we werent gonna leave you behind"

"i know" i said and hugged him on the side as we walked

we got in the bus and i sat with q

"what if people hate me" i said

"ness. who cares. their problem. not yours besides they are like little 12 year olds"

"true" i laughed

we then arrived and piled out of the bus

we were running late so we started the meet n greet straight away

"hiii!!" i smiled at a couple girls

"hii!!" they squealed and hugged me

we took some pictures and they left to the next person.

there were a bunch of people who just walked past me glaring into my sole.

that part hurt me alot. more then i thought it would. especially because all the stuff that they hated me for. was false.

now it was time for the q & a show.

"what's up everybodyyy!!" jaden yelled and everyone screamed

"so let's get started with the q and a" chase said

a bunch of people put their hands up and he picked one.

"favourite thing about tour?"

"well, my favourite thing is definitely being able to meet all of you" he smiled

it was my turn to say my favroutie things.

"one of my favorite things is traveling with my bestfriends" i smiled

the crowd awed and then it was avanis turn

once we went through everyone it was time for the next question.

"question 2!" avani smiled

"you're a cheater" a girl said loudly pointing at me

the crowd started yelling

"she is not a cheater. she didnt cheat on anyone" quinton said

they went silent

"i promise. i would never do that" i said

they all just stared at me.

"next question" bryce said quickly

we moved on fast but that didnt make me forget.

we did a couple more and ended the show.

i got a couple more useless comments about how terrible i was while we ended the show and walked past everyone so i decided i just wanted to go home.

"let's go out for dinner" mads suggested

everyone agreed happily

"im just gonna go back" i said

"ness" cynthia said

"cmon" jaden said

"nah im okay" i said

"i'll go back with you" quinton said

"babe?" cynthia said

"it's okay. im not that hungry anyway"

"oh okay" she said

"you dont have to come" i said to q

"i know" he said

everyone said bye and left us

"bye baby. text me" cynthia said kissing him goodbye

"bye ness" she said and hugged me and ran to catch up to the others.

"how arent you hungry?" i said to q

he shrugged

"cmon lets go!!" he said dragging me home

we got home and i got into my bed

"you alright?"

"yeah. i think im gonna go to sleep" i said

"okay" he replied and sat on his bed while i fell asleep on mine

it was time to get on the bus to go to the next hotel. so i did. and quinton followed me.

"you dont have to stick by me" i said to him

"oh" he said "sorry"

"no q! you know what i meant" i said

he shrugged

"it feels like you are just hanging by me so that when i break down i have someone there for me" i said

"ness" he said "you know i dont think that deep into things"

i laughed and so did he

"but im sorry. i can back off just want you to know we are all here for you"

"no. it's fine. just hate spending this much time with you" i said

"shut the fuck up" he said hitting me

i rolled my eyes.

we took some pictures and i posted.
i didnt disable the comments which was a dumb mistake.

i saw all the hate. all of it.
i ignored it but it was still in the back of my head.

when the names were called out for the rooms i was with avani, cynthia, and mads

we decided to watch a movie together.

while the movie was playing i was just on my phone cause i was bored.

i saw a bunch of stuff about how we are broken up and stuff.

i didnt really feel like we were even broken up. we hadn't talked in ages and he did a dick thing. it felt like we were still together. and technically we were cause neither of us called it off.

@ness
- we havent broken up yet

i tweeted nervously

and then almost immediately i got a text from josh

baby 💓
-can we talk ?