i will always come back to you

i hate myself without you

i woke up in the morning tired from the little sleep i got the night before.

"morning" cynthia smiled at me

i just smiled at her fakely

"bitch" she said

"what!!" i said quickly

"fucking fake smile" she said and laughed

i rolled my eyes and laid back on my bed.

avani and mads were already out on the bus waiting for us.

"quick get changed cause we are going to the next hotel"

"oh right" i said nodding and slowly getting up

i got changed and walked out to start packing.

i looked over at my bags and saw them all packed and ready to go.

"cyn? did you do this?" i asked

"yeah" she said casually

"thankyou so much" i said hugging her

"anything for you my love" she said and i actually smiled

"theres the pretty smile i was looking for" she said smiling at me

"cmon" she said "let's go"

i nodded and we made out way down to where the bus was parked.

when i walked in i saw quinton sitting alone and mads sitting alone

"mads or q?" cynthia whispered to me

"you take q. im gonna sit by myself" i said

she laughed a little evily because she was making mads sit alone. shes such a bitch. i love it. and then she sat next to q.

i sat at the back of the bus by myself.
i rather sit by myself today.
i didnt want anyone constantly checking up on me anyway.

i put my airpods in and listened to music while i scrolled through instagram

i saw another post on tiktokroom and it was about me and josh.

he had gone live again but this time told the truth and admitted the lies he made about cheating.

i smiled a little but then i remembered im no longer his.
and he is no longer mine.
we are broken up.

i turned off my phone and looked out the window listening to music

i woke up to someone shaking me.

i looked to my left and saw bryce

"hey darling" he smiled brightly

"hey" i said wiping my eyes

he sat next to me

"are we here" i asked

"nah" he said

"then why did you wake me up?"

"cause i felt like it" he laughed

i didnt laugh and looked back out the window

"ness it's a joke" he said

"ok" i said

"josh would be disappointed you arent smiling" he said laughing

i just glared at him.

"what the fuck?" i said

"what!!?" he said quickly

"you're a dick" i said and put my music on again and stared back out the window trying to keep myself from crying.