Wicked Game | Miya Atsumu

twenty-three.

Atsumu hasn't texted me or anything and it's almost to our lunch time. Honestly, it did upset me because I couldn't help but to notice that Atsumu is someone who has his own pride and ego. He's almost similar to Suna but still, he's the sweetest. It just, sometimes I couldn't help but to feel sad and upset with his attitude. I didn't know why was he that upset just because I refused to have him sleeping in my camp. It's not like I'm leaving him behind or anything. I just wanted to make this trip a friendly one. He should have understood me better but instead, he chose to be upset and mad about it. Not forgetting how he shouted at me earlier, I would have cried if Suna and Osamu weren't there. He had never yelled or shouted at me and that surprised me the most.

I let out a sigh. Maybe I should start expecting less from him. Maybe this is just a minor challenge for me, for us as a couple. I was just feeling scared of what awaits us in the future. I can't predict or imagine how worst can our argument and misunderstanding could be. Thinking about being in a bad situation with Atsumu saddened me. I just wanted to live a happy life with the person I love, and that person is him. I looked at my phone's wallpaper. It was a picture of me and Atsumu. The smile he had on his face, it's one of my favorite features of him. He has the best smile and his smiles assure me that I'm loved by him. I smiled bitterly and continued unpacking stuff.

"Y/N..." Atsumu called me with his soft voice. It was slow but I could hear it clearly. I got up and walked to the door, opening it, and saw him standing. He looked at me with his sad eyes. We locked our gaze on each other and remained silent for the first few seconds. "Can I come in?" he asked. I looked down, replying to him with a hum. He entered my camp and I closed the door. I leaned against the door, eyes were still looking down. He looked up at me. "Are you..." he cleared his throat. My eyes moved to look at him. He sighed, "Are you mad at me?" he doesn't look mad. His voice was shaky and I hate that. I hate it when he talks to me with that voice. It broke me. I couldn't reply to him verbally as I was trying to stop myself from crying. I felt emotional seeing him like this. I felt guilty for making him upset. I shook my head, no.

He walked towards me and grabbed my hands. He caressed them gently. "I'm sorry" he kissed my knuckle. There he goes. "I didn't... Mean to be childish about it. I just... Want to be with you because you're my girlfriend" he confessed. I no longer can control my tears from rolling down on my cheeks. "I know" I mumbled, head's facing down to the floor. He pulled me for a hug. It was a tight hug yet it felt warm. His big hand rubbing my back as if he was assuring me that he just wants the best for me, that he just wants to be with me and nothing more. His chin placed on top of my head. "I should have considered when you said you don't want to join this trip. I should have understand you well, I should have at least ask you the reason why you refused but instead, I was being selfish and prioritized my own feelings" I leaned my head against his chest, crying quietly as he explains his side. "I'm really sorry for yelling at you, for being harsh at you. I shouldn't do that. I just... Couldn't control my temper and it was out of my consciousness. I know you're hurt by that. I'm really sorry, y/n" he hugged me tighter. I looked up at him and held his cheeks. I sniffed and flashed a smile at him. "It's okay. I know it wasn't your intention" I caressed his cheeks. He shook his head slowly. "No. It was unacceptable. I've promised you that I'll treat you good but I did the opposite thing" he leaned his forehead against mine.

How can I not love this guy? How can I stay mad at him that long?

"I did feel upset about it..." I looked at him in the eyes. My tears seemed to roll down even faster. I was a crying mess and my face was red because of it. "But at least you came to me and apologized. And you also explained your side, then it's acceptable and forgivable" I tiptoed to give a light peck on his lips. "I thought you won't come to comfort me but you actually did and I'm grateful for that" I brushed our noses, chuckling softly. He formed a grin, leaning his face closer to mine. "I will always come to comfort you, baby. I love you so much that I will never let you go through a night with sadness left in you, especially if I'm the one who upsets you. I won't let that to happen" he pecked my lips back. I smiled, hugging him tighter. My heart finally feels at ease. "Are we good now?" he cupped my cheeks and looked at me. I nodded my head slowly. He smiled before leaving a kiss on my temple.