Dealing with Mr. Scared of What? (Quadro Series #1)

Chapter 10

"What did you do?!"

Napayuko na lang siya dahil sa tanong ni Dave, alam niya ang ginawa niya para mataranta at mawalan ng malay si Kyx. He got a panic attack and Dave immediately bring him to the nearest hospital. Halos hindi mapakali si Dave at anina pa itong may tinatawagan sa phone nito She's guilty and she knows it. Alam niya ang kalagayan ni Kyx pero umakto siya ng ganon kaya.

"I'm sorry. Nag-usap lang kami, hindi ko sinasadya lakasan ang boses ko." Ani niya. She was playing with her fingers while standing beside Kyx bed. Dave sigh as he looks at her, he seems stressed at the highest level possible. Hindi ito mapakali at halatang galit ito. Pakiramdam niya may kung ano nakabara sa lalamunan niya, ramdam niya din ang pawis na numumuo sa noo niya.

"Nag-kasagutan kayo?" He asks after a minute of silence and angry huffs. Dave look distraught, tumango lang siya bilang sagot. "Sinubukan mo ba siyang hawakan o saktan?" Sunod na tanong nito habang nakatingin sakaniya ng mariin.

"Hindi naman sa ganon. Nag-uusap kami kaso magwa-walk out siya kaya naisigaw ko ang pangalan niya." She remarked. Hindi pa din siya nakatingin dito, her eyes remained at Kyx. Hindi niya sinasadya at gusto niyang humingi ng tawad. Gusto lang niya ito tulungan. Habang nakatingin dito hindi niya maiwasan ikumpara sarili niya sa Ina niya. Pakiramdam niya nasira niya ang progress ng recovery nito.

Dave sigh as he sits down while she just stands there awkwardly, few seconds later Dave commands her to sit on the sofa in front of her. Agad naman siya sumunod, nang makaupo siya agad naman lumapit si Dave sakaniya at base sa pagmumukha at kung paano ito gumalaw mukhang makakatikim siya pang-malakasang sermon.

"Kyx is slowly healing ang recovering." Panimula nito. "He can stand seeing women but he still can't stand being near them. Kyx still gets scared, too scared to the point that he had severe panic attacks, kagaya ngayon." Pagpatuloy nito. Dave monotone voice and rock hard expression bother her. Nasanay siyang palabiro at mapang-asar ito makipag-usap sakaniya

Parang nagsasabi ito nang sagradong lihim sakaniya. Minsan lang nagiging seryuso si Dave kaya kung ganito ito kinakabahan siya pero habang nakikinig dito hindi niya maiwasan mag-taka. Ano nga ba nangyari kay Kyx parang magkaroon siya ng phobia na ito?

Why is he scared of woman? Paano ito nagkaroon ng Gynophobia?

"But, why? I mean how?" She stutters in her words. "Paano? Anong rason kung bakit siya mayroon nito? At bakit mo ko kinausap na lapitan siya?" Sunod-sunod niyang tanong habang nakatingin kay Dave, she's curious and confuse. The longer she let herself be involved the deeper everything gets. "Dave, what did you put me into?"

Dave heave a breathe, clearly having enough of her blabbering. "That story is not mine to tell." Saad nito bago tumayo at naglakad papunta kay Kyx. "Kalimutan mo na lang usapan natin. Masama itong ideya na ito. Nakakasira ka kay Kyx." Ani ni Dave ng hindi man lang siya tinitignan. Agad naman kumunot ang noo niya habang naririnig ang mga salita sa lumabas sa bibig nito.

"What?" She asks, pakiramdam niya namingi siya. "Anong kalimutan? At anong nakaka-sira? Ako?" She remarked while looking at Dave's back. The room was silent ang only the soft humming of the air-conditioning can be heard. Ilang minuto din sila natahimik bago nito sinagot ang tanong nito.

"Pinaki -usapan kita dahil ikaw lang babae kinausap at nilapitan ni Kyx, hindi dahil sa sinabi ng doctor niya." Dave's voice was stoic, the kind of voice he uses when he's mad. She can't speak nor move. "Ikaw ang unang babae nilapitan at kinausap niya kaya akala ko — " Bumuntong-hininga ito bago ginulo ang buhok nito. "Olivia is looking for you. Just leave. Kasalanan ko ito, hindi na kita dapat kinausap. Umalis ka na lang, you've done enough!"

She scoff as she grab her bag. Why is this man mad at her, is it because she causes this? Well, damn. This shouldn't have happened if he tell her everything. Kasalanan niya din naman dahil um-oo lang siya pero ano ba inaasahan nito sakaniya? Sinalang lang siya nito at wala siyang alam tungkol sa binata! May kasalanan siya oo pero may kasalanan din naman ito!

Anger aroused inside her and she was about to open the door when her body stop. Agad naman siya huminga ng malalim bago bumaling kay Dave na ngayon at nakaupo na sa stool sa tabi ng higaan ni Kyx. She can't keep this inside of her, she'll regret it. Ayaw niyang sumabog na lang siya kung saan-saan at gusto niya marinig ni Dave ang saloobin niya!

"Galit ka saakin?" She asks. She is breathing heavily, she can feel adrenaline wash through her body. Dave looked at her. She chuckles humourlessly as she wipe her tear stained cheeks. "I didn't know anything about him or his phobia Dave! At pinaki-usapan mo akong lapitan ito! Ano sa tingin mo mangyayari?" She stated. "Kasalanan ko pero grabe ka naman. Ikaw nag-lagay saakin dito!"

"Alam ko!" Dave remarked before standing. Halatang galit ito pero nagpipigil lang. "Kasalanan ko ito Quinn. Aakuin ko ito. You've destroyed every bit of our hopes, kaya please lang. Umalis kana!"

"You didn't tell me anything. I tried asking but you didn't tell me anything. I was clueless!" Madiin saad, gusto niyang ipukpok sa ulo ni Dave iyon. "You expect that I can magically help him recover from his godforsaken Phobia?" She continued rambling, natatakot siya pero nangingibabaw ang galit niya ngayon. "Do I look like a God to you? Hindi porket ako ang unang babae kinausap niya ilalagay niyo lahat ng pag-asa niyo saakin! I never sign up for this!"

"No!" She flinched slightly because of Dave suddenly shouting, pakiramdam niya nanlamig ang buong katawan niya. Ayaw niyang sinisigawan siya natatakot siya. "I know. Malaking kasalanan na umasa ako saiyo. Sinira mo lang lahat. Nagsisi ako Quinn, akala ko may ibig sabihin ang pagtitig niya saiyo noon!"

"What?" She utter in confusion. What was that supposed to mean? Does Kyx saw her before? Have they meet before? That's impossible if they meet before she would have remembered him, she can't easily forget. Especially a weirdly unique man like Kyx. "What do you mean by that?"

"Simula ng makita ka niya noon, nakita ko na sinusubukan niya na din. He tried, he participated. Dahil sayo! Dahil sa isang babae." Unti-unting lumiliit ang boses ni Dave kasabay ng pagtalikod nito sakaniya.  "At siya ang kusang lumapit at kumausap sayo. He look at you normally when your not looking. That's why I thought you can help him and I was wrong. Maybe you're not that special, and maybe that's the answer to every question you have."

Parang namingi siya dahil sa narinig niya. A lone tear fell from her eyes hearing what Dave said. She is crying her eyes out while looking at the man who claim to be her big brother. This is the same man in front of her telling her she's not special. What kind of bullshit is this.

"Sorry, that's not what I mean, I — just leave Quinn. Ako na bahala dito." Dave remarked, stuttering. Her vision is getting blurry from all the tears falling from her eyes. She chuckles sarcastically before she wipes her tears and leaving the room in silence. Agad naman siya pumunta sa elevator bago pinindot ang ground floor.

Nang makadating siya sa ground floor ay agad naman siya umalis mula sa elevator bago naglakad papunta sa sasakyan niya. She hops inside the car. Nang makapasok siya akmang papaandarin niya ang kotse niya ng bigla na lang tumulo ang luha niya. Agad niya itong pinunasan pero sunod -sunod ng pumatak ang mga ito. So much for helping Kyx huh.

She can't even help herself, how could she even help a guy who had a godforsaken phobia. She's hopeless.