Dealing with Mr. Scared of What? (Quadro Series #1)

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Women, scare him. No scare is an understatement. Not because of the stereotypical reason. Men are scared to be taken advantage for money, fame and status but him. Iba ang dahilan kung bakit siya takot. He doesn't want to associate himself with women.

If possible he just want to stay away from the world but he can't. Alam niya sa sarili niya na gusto niya din lumabas at maging normal pero hindi niya kaya. Makakita lang siya ng babae, nahihilo siya at nasusuka. Higit sa lahat parang nawawala ang hininga niya at lahat ng masasama pakiramdam nararamdaman niya.

Everything is normal then suddenly you have some rare medical case. Gusto niyang maging normal. Gusto niyang bumalik siya dati. Noong hindi pa patay ang Mama niya at si Venus. Noong normal pa siya. That scarred him, dahil doon nakilala niya sila. Minsan napapaisip siya kung paano hindi nangyari ang nangyari sakaniya.

Normal ba siya ngayon? Wala ba siyang kinatatakutan ngayon? Masaya kaya siya? Nalulungkot siya dahil hindi lang siya naapektuhan pati ang mga kakambal niya. Kung hindi lang dahil sakanila masaya sila pero dahil sa takot niya. Pakiramdam niya nasisira niya ang buhay ng lahat ng tao sa paligid niya.

He's scared of woman more than death itself. So imagine the shock he felt when he saw her. Sumama siya dahil alam niya lahat ng estyudante ay nasa graduation hall. Nasa second floor sila kaya kita niya boung graduation hall mula doon. Then he saw her.

Seeing that woman, smiling and laughing happily while taking her medals and giving her speech. She's a valedictorian. Hindi niya alam bakit niya ito nararamdaman pero ang ngiti at tawa nito, parang narinig niya na ito dati. He stare at her walking back to her chair still smiling brightly. No, he should be scared, he is but watching the woman smile he can't help but feel awe.

Nagulat siya sa nararamdaman niya, ni hindi nga niya napansin na nakatingin lang siya sa babae hanggang magsalita si Dave sa tabi niya. Dave hit him gently while looking at the woman he's been eyeing. Usually, he doesn't do this, he can't look at a woman especially in their eyes. He would faint or have a panic attack.

"Beautiful, isn't she?" Dave asks while smiling. "That's Quinn. A little crack head but a good friend." Dave stared at her as if observing him. "If I had to say it. She's just like Venus."

Nakuha ang atensyon niya sa sinabi nito. Napatingin siya kay Dave, nginitian siya ng kaibigan bago binigay sakaniya ang isang calling card, nangunot naman ang noo niya. He looks at it. It has the name of some woman there. "What am I gonna do with this?"

Dave shrugged. "You heard Howl said, you need to start somewhere. You are already comfortable with my fiancee, which took almost 3 years." Diniinan talaga nito ang salitang 'five'. He roll his eyes. It took her that long to get comfortable with Tate. He got a little used to her, it was not easy though. His head would throb, his chest would tighten when he's alone with Tate but in time he did it. He got comfortable enough to sit or even talk with her. He got comfortable but not comfortable enough. "Now, why don't you get comfortable with her? "

"I don't know man." He shrug feeling scared all of the sudden. He turns his back against the graduation hall. Sinabihan na siya ni Howl na tanging paraan para hindi na siya matakot ay harapin ang kinakatakutan niya pero hindi niya talaga. Every time a girl comes near him and much more touches him, he remember that night.

Gusto niyang mamuhay ng normal at walang takot pero hindi madali, sinubukan niya pero hindi niya talaga magawa. He doesn't like the feeling of guilt for himself and his brother every time he failed. Lagi niyang pinapangako iyon pero lagi din siyang nabibigo. He failed the people around him and him, himself. Even baby steps scared him.