EUPHORIA - My Moon and Stars..

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Maya's POV:
"I can't believe you fucked fez" Maddie grinned as she playfully nudged me. Kat was giggling as  I explained what happened. It was kind of hard balancing everything, I hadn't really considered telling Rue. She was in a rough place and I don't know.. it felt wrong.

I wish she felt comfortable enough to tell me. We were best fucking friends, I didn't give a fuck what I was going through, talking to Maya about stupid teenage shit like fucking your ex fuck buddy was the stuff I missed.

"Now you need to fuck Nate over and you need to discuss stuff with Ethan already." I stated as we all laid back. We lay there thinking about our individual lives, each of us dealing with our own problems.

I couldn't help but let my mind drift to Elliot. Of course it was my luck that we didn't even get to go through a fucking honeymoon phase before everything went wrong. It made me kind of sad, not sad enough to reach out though.

"I miss Nate." Maddie sighed, I could hear the heartbreak in her voice. I almost laughed at the irony. "I miss Elliot." I muttered, his name was sour on my tongue. We sat in silence, it was still comforting, I knew Maddie understood me and I understood her. I knew me and Kat understood each other and no matter what we'd have each other's back. I missed Rue. I missed seeing her daily and messing around. I missed Elliot, I missed how he'd casually strum his guitar and sing as we felt ourselves elevate into our high.

I missed being high. Because somehow the version of me that was constantly high was preferred more. I had no clue on what to do. Being high brought me closer to the people I cared about.

I wish you never felt that fucking way.

So I did the only reasonable thing. I locked myself in my bedroom and I slept. If I couldn't get high and escape my reality... then I'd find a different way. I had switched my phone completely off and was just basking in the sheer numbness of sobriety.

Honestly I kind of felt like seeing Ali again. He was easily the most comforting person when it came to discussing addiction.. drugs and all that depressing shit. A part of me wished so desperately that I could talk to Rue about it.

But I knew I couldn't. She was dealing with so much and I couldn't burden her with my shit. Not now. Not her or Ali.

I wish you had burdened me as if your life fucking depended on it if it meant you felt better Maya.

I heard the door go downstairs and my mom had answered it. I snuck out of my room and took a seat by the staircase, slightly ear wigging. It didn't take a fucking genius to spot Fez's mumbly ass voice at the door. I scrunched my nose wondering what he was doing here.

I snuck back into my room the minute I heard my mom give him the all clear to come to my room.

"Yo." He mumbled, knocking on the door. He walked in before I even said anything making me roll my eyes. "Hello fez." I stated, bored as I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling. "I got you something" he muttered. My eyes shot to his curiously "what?" I asked.

"Some spa treatment or shit I don't know." Passing me a pamphlet that I know he must've got from Maddie considering she had been recommending this place to me for ages. I smiled as his cheesiness.

"I forgot how much you spoil me when we're pals." I joked as he rolled his eyes smiling. "I missed you." He said hugging me. I closed my eyes, relishing in his hold. Because with Fez... I felt like I was being heard. He was slowly making his way up the list of my true friends.

As we sat, I decided to talk boundaries with him. "So now that we're friends." I began as he nodded looking at me. "No sex. No arguing because I'm always right. No telling anyone about our ... well. Anyway." I carried on listing a bunch of rules as he laughed to some and shook his head to others.

"I got some rules too." He stated. I nodded, wanting him to go ahead. "No drugs. No beefing me when you after drugs. No going behind my back to Ash...." He continued but I mostly drowned him out.

"Whatever." I smiled as he grinned back. Having Fez back in my life, for real as a friend this time felt fucking fabulous. Especially because he always knew the line and as a friend,. He'd never cross it.

"So wassup wit you and your man?" He asked referencing Elliot. I rolled my eyes, refusing to even answer as I groaned into my pillow. "That bad huh?" He mumbled laughing. I couldn't help but laugh too. With Elliot it would always be one step forward and fucking forty back.

"I think you should call him." Fez said and I scoffed like he was crazy. "Shut the fuck up Fez" I stated and he turned to me "yeah I thought it would help I think you should cut that little bitch off" he spat.

Fez and Maya spent the day together. She occasionally texted me, eager to know how I was doing. But anytime I asked her about herself? She would sway. And that was how I knew she wasn't doing good. That feeling alone left a fucking pit in my stomach. So I spoke to Fez the next day and told him I thought he needed to keep an eye on Maya. If I could relapse..... if Elliot could relapse? Then fuck maybe Maya could. If that happened I'd never forgive myself for not being there.

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