quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

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Maru was then introduced to everyone but a boy named Kenji, who apparently had gone to bed. She made small talk with everyone except Dazai, they made eye contact from time to time but did not talk for the rest of the evening.

She found herself terrified of the President, the presence the man had made her feel queasy because of how strong he looked but also...

'Ain't no way my boss is this hot, suddenly every Lana del Rey song makes sense' this was obviously in the privacy of her own head.

She also thanked profoundly the woman named Yosano, who she learned had the ability to cure any and all wounds, with a weird rule that you had to be at the verge of dying first, but she saved her life nevertheless. She was also very hot, which she also appreciated.

'Everyone is really good looking at what is going on, how the hell am I gonna fit in here' she thought.

"Maru, I think it's time that you rest and prepare for your official day tomorrow at the Agency, someone will walk you to your apartment and also pick you up tomorrow to talk you to the Agency" the President said to Maru while giving her a key.

"Oh, and do us all a favor and don't try to run, we founded you once, we can do it again", The president said in a serious tone.

"I'll take her to her apartment♪︎" Dazai screamed across the room with excitement, only to be kicked in the back by Kunikida.

"The hell you are, Atsushi, take her to the apartment its in the same apartment complex as you, only a floor up, room 9" responded the blond man, still standing on top of Dazai as it was perfectly normal.

The walk to her new home was kind of awkward, she could notice Atsushi's nervous and shy nature, he had told her he was only 18 years old and an orphan, way too young to have a job that puts him at risk everyday.

'He can turn into a tiger tho'

"So Atsushi-kun, do you like working at the Agency?" She asked, trying to break the silence, it was a 10 minute walk but it felt like 2 hours long.

"I really do, everyone is kind of eccentric but I guess that has its perks, you can never get bored" he responded with excitement like a little kid.

"That sounds nice, I'm looking forward to it then" she said in a sleepy voice, she was indeed tired even though she had slept for 15 days straight.

"Hey, but I don't have an ability, what am I supposed to do at the Armed Detective Agency, if I'm not you know, armed" she asked no one in particular, it was a doubt she had since Dazai told her she was gonna be working at the Agency.

"Well, I think you are gonna be fine, there's office work, and we always work in at least pairs, not all abilities have offensive traits, like Dazai's ability, he can nullify any and all abilities by touching the user, but it's not like a sword or something" Atsushi rambled trying to respond the question that was to no one in particular.

"So that's his ability, it makes sense" Maru said without thinking.

"What makes sense?" The boy asked.

"Well, you must be powerful to make everybody a mere human, but if you have the ability to take away people's spark, what does that make you?" Now Maru was the one rambling.

"Dazai's ability is called 'No Longer Human'" Atsushi said softly.

"I guess I have my answer, it makes sense he is sad." she said looking at the night sky.

"What makes you think he is sad, you just met him today" the young man questioned her, with pure curiosity on the girl's perspective of his coworker.

She stopped walking and turned to face Atsushi.

"Nobody that seeks or longs for death so desperately is happy, Atsushi-kun"

Then a long silence hugged them both, it was neither awkward or uncomfortable, it was a silence that made then know they would get along.

"Maru-san, can I ask you something?" The boy broke the silence, she just nodded giving him permission.

"Why did you leave your home?" He asked softly.

She knew he would ask her, Nakajima Atsushi, an orphan that was kicked out of the orphanage because of an ability he didn't even know he had, or so that's the story that Tanizaki told her. The weretiger never had a family and longs for one, without noticing he already found one.

"Well Atsushi-kun, I don't think you will understand or like my answer but, I was just suffocating in a life I didn't like, I don't hate my parents, but we don't have the best of relationships so I thought maybe some space will do us good, also I like my career, but didn't like my job, my life felt like it wasn't my own, and I guess I just snapped." She took a deep breath before continuing and turned to look at Atsushi.

"I never meant for this to happen, to make my parents sad, to killed those men, to have to be stuck here with you all, but I'll always try to make the best of every situation, not in an optimistic way, but for survival, so let's get along, Nakajima Atsushi-kun" she finished while reaching out her hand to him as if closing a deal.

'Dazai-san was right' he thought and shook his hand with hers.

They just walked the rest of the way in silence, Atsushi showed her around the apartment, it had a kitchen, the room straight ahead was a small living room with a window, then to the left was a corridor with a bathroom to the left and to the right was a simple bedroom with a window

"Why do you get more rooms?" He was kind of annoyed.

"Because I am a lady and..." she responded as she put the back of her hand to her forehead, closed her eyes and leaned back in a dramatic way.

"I was kidnapped and physically abused! I need more space to process" she ended her sentence in an exaggerated tone.

"Sounds like bullshit to me" Atsushi whispered.

"It is." she whispered back.

Then Atushi said his goodbyes and left. Maru went right to sleep, everything seemed like a dream, maybe she would wake up by going to bed.

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I really love Atsushi's character, and he deserves to be MC 😤

What you think so far?

-M