quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

poor girl

"Stop" Dazai ordered everyone at the other side of the mirror.

"What do you mean stop? He got her by the collar! She is in danger stupid Dazai" Kunikida yelled at his coworker. He was almost gripping the doorknob.

"She is not in immediate danger, she can manage just fine without us" Dazai said calmly, but never taking his eyes off of what was happening in the interrogation room.

"I'll take full responsibility if anything happens." He reassured his coworker. "But sometimes misogynistic men need to be humbled by what they hate the most, and right now, Maru's doing a great job humiliating him, so let her" he added, still staring at the situation in front of him.

"If he doesn't let her go in two minutes, I'm going in whether you like it or not" responded an angry Kunikida, he didn't like the way Dazai worked sometimes, he really thinks that this could escalate into something more serious and his new coworker could end up hurt.

"That's fine by me" was all that Dazai said.

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"You should let go of me, it's really not gonna help you at trial you know?" I said half joking and half angry as I held a pen, that I snatched from the office reception and hid inside the clip of my board, close to his left eye.

"You tricked me, disgusting little whore" he said angrily while the gripp he had on my shirt became stronger.

"Let me go or lose an eye" and move the pen an inch closer to his eye, almost touching his eyelashes.

And finally he did. He let go and pushed me so hard to my chair it moved and I slammed against the glass.

Kunikida and some police officers came in, they helped me stand up and asked if I was okay, I just kept glaring at the man in front of me.

"The confession was recorded, and was all that we needed, so enjoy prison you fucker" was all I could say as I left the room.

Dazai was standing right outside the door, he gave me a strange look that I didn't have the energy to figure out.

"Excuse me", I whispered and dragged myself to the bathroom. I checked all the stals and thankfully they were empty. I went to a sink and started running the water while looking at my blurry reflection in the mirror.

"You're okay, it's fine, you did the job, you helped the girls" here I am telling my stupid mantras and affirmations trying to talk myself out of a panic attack.

I could feel the walls closing in and my breath getting shallow and shaky, the pressure on my chest growing and seeing black dots on my vision, not good signs. My knees felt like jelly, I was just holding myself up with my arms and using the sink to keep myself steady.

The door opened up and I could see Dazai through the reflection of the mirrors. He looked at me from the mirrors too and just kind of put an arm around my waist from behind and I let myself go, I'm so tired.

We kind of just slipped to the ground until he was sitting on the ground and I was between his legs, he didn't let go of me and I started to cry, full on wailing, I felt like a little kid. I couldn't breathe between my cries. I felt as if I was drowning in my own tears.

"You're okay, you did good" I heard Dazai's voice, he was telling me right next to my ear but he felt so far away, and I couldn't stop crying. I grabbed the arm he had on my waist and pushed it into me. I need to feel some kind of pressure, and I think he got the idea since he wrapped his other arm in front of my chest holding my shoulder and squished me.

He kept talking but I couldn't hear him. My cries did become softer, I could hear his breathing and felt his heartbeat, so I tried to concentrate on that. We stayed like that for about 10 minutes but it felt like hours.