quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

battle

Sharing a house with Dazai has been weird, it's more quiet than I imagined. We were laying on the living room floor, the both of us, just lost in each other's minds, I gotta say his company is nice. But the silence is making me think about all the things that are going on.

One: someone tried to kill me and apparently I am an ability user without the ability.

Two: Chuuya is ghosting me after killing people for my sake.

Three: Dazai and I made out like two days ago and here we are acting domestic without even mentioning it.

"I can hear you think" He said, turning his body to me so he was facing my profile, I was still looking up to the ceiling.

"Well, I am thinking." I whispered while turning to face him the same way he was, we were pretty close to each other.

"Do you want me to take your mind off things?" He said tracing his finger on the side of my thigh, and it really caught me off guard, I felt my ears get hot and my heart beat faster. I stayed quiet.

"You know, we are alone here, no distractions no nothing, we can make here our own little Vegas" He whispered getting closer to my face, his hand resting on my hip. I don't know if I should do this. I looked into his eyes and then I saw it. Dilated pupils, his hand felt heavier, his breathing slightly irregular. He was on something.

"Are you high?" I whispered and I reached to hold his cheek but he slapped my hand away. He just groaned and stood up and left.

Dazai was in his room for the rest of the day, he didn't even come out to eat. I was kind of thinking on how to handle the situation. Do I even have to handle the situation? He is a grown man, but he is also my friend and someone I like. He has been acting strange this whole day. Taking pills, sleeping till late, telling my childhood stories about Chuuya and the Mafia... Dazai is definitely acting weird, but whenever I ask he just pushes me away and closes off, quite literally.

So I went to bed.

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I heard ruffling and mumbling around. It was 3 in the morning, and there were sounds coming out of Dazai's room. I called out his name to see if maybe he was awake or something but I got no response, I tried to ignore it but the mumbling and whispering were getting kind of loud, so I got out of my room, gave a quick tour around the house and concluded the sounds were coming from his room.

I knocked once. No response.

I knocked twice. No response.

So I opened the door.

Dazai was asleep but tossing around a lot, he was talking in his sleep but couldn't make out a word, he was frowning and looked like he was having a nightmare.

I reached out to him sitting on the floor.

"Hey, wake up, you're having a bad dream" I whispered, shaking him a little, but he kind of pushed me with his elbow and kept moving a lot.

"Osamu, wake up! It's just a dream!" I yelled at him, and took his shoulders and shook him with more force.

"STOP" he finally screamed but pushed me and I mean pushed me, my back hit the door and I felt the air being knocked out of my lungs.

I looked at him with a frown while coughing. He was crying?

"Hey, are you okay what...-" I said concerned, I have never seen him cry, no matter how hard Kunikida hits him, or what stupid thing he does or says, he has never cried.

"Get out" He told me without looking at me.

"Osamu, it's okay, we can talk-" I said softly trying to calm him down.