quicksand (Dazai X Reader)

distance

The next morning I was running to the Agency after the small discovery I made while suffering from insomnia and a very high fever, so maybe I was hallucinating, but anyways, I did find a solution for me not to fry like an egg.

I opened the door and everyone was already there. I saw Kunikida stand up probably to scold me but I raised a finger up motioning him to shut up. I walked up to the corner of the office. Beside Rampo's desk there was a small table. I placed three candles that were inside my bag there. I could feel everyone approaching to see what I was doing.

Then I walked towards my desk pulling out a small pocket knife and walking again to the table with the candle. I made a small cut on my hand letting the candle bath with it until the metal base that caughts the melted wax was filled with red. And then I snapped my fingers and a little violet blue flame appeared in the candle wick.

"How did you do that?" Kunikida asked me, looking at me with comical fear, as if he was a priest and I was an evil witch. I just smiled at him and gave him a wink.

"I have figured it out. You see, she needs an outlet, so I thought that if it's fire that she brings then I should just light up a candle with her flame so she can burn as long as she wants! I am a genius!" I yelled in excitement, all honesty I felt pretty manic because I am running on two hours of sleep, suicidal thoughts and an oreo.

"...are you okay?" I heard Atsushi ask as I just watched the candle burn, and was putting my blood on the other two.

"I will be" I whispered as I lit them up. I turned around and the Agency members were looking at me with curiosity and worry. I eyed Dazai, we have not spoken since yesterday, I heard him leave my apartment an hour after I felt him in the bathtub, and since then, silence.

He stayed on his usual window looking from afar as our other friends were fascinated with the weird flame emitting from the candles. I gave him a soft smile and he returned it, except it was one of his fake ones, the ones he gives to other people, and now I have to accept it and act like I did not notice.

"Does it work then? There to be outside flames decreases your fever?" The President appeared from his office and watched the candles burn.

"I tried it last night and well, I did not die, also I felt better, like if there was pressure in my head had lifted" I answered and the President nodded.

"I also had the time to try to see what I can do with my blood!" I said as I lifted my hand and the blood stood upwards forming needle-like lines, then turning into a knife-like form, Kenji was mesmerized.

"I cannot control the blood that has left my body for a while or that is far away, for now. Lilith says that with practice I can do a variety of tricks." I said still making small forms with the blood on my hands.

•••

Dazai and I were not avoiding each other but we were not exactly being friendly. Most of our interactions were awkward because we didn't really know what to do with each other. Yesterday we bumped into each other in the small kitchen in the office and we both stuttered. Us. the most talkative people in the Agency.

The last time we were not talking it wasn't awkward because we were fighting, going back and forth with indirect remarks, now there is just a weird tension between us. I couldn't give an answer to any of the members of what was going on between us.

"Oh, it's nothing, we are the same!" That was the denial option.

"Oh, we have been so busy with our own stuff I guess we have grown a little apart!" That's the almost honest one.