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Tw: Depression, and self-harm
Every day, is another lonely day for
Y/n inside inside her little cell even when Levi, Connie, Jean or Hange visits her...she still feels so alone.
Sasha couldn't visit since she's still recovering from her injuries in a hospital inside inner wall Rose.
She doesn't even know what could fill her loneliness. She just feels so empty and drained. Is there something to fill her emptiness? Is there still a reason for her to wake up for another day?
When all she can feel is her heavy heart, the emotional pain and her mind that's so messed up, does she still have a good reason to wake up?
Even when her feels like it's falling apart? Does she still have a reason...
To keep living? To keep breathing?
What is she gonna do if she choose to live? What is the good reason to live?
Y/n doesn't know...she can't think.
Her mind are full of whats and whys. Her messed up mind keeps making what if scenarios, whys outcomes...
Bargaining.
She's at that stage.
Bargaining to make her pain go away, to find a reason to continue on living.
Bargaining for herself to live another day, when all that means is feeling pain all over again.
Even if that means feeling empty, sorrowed and drained out again.
"Y/n?"
Y/n slowly lift up her head upon hearing Jean's voice, she looked at the man who's standing in front of the cell bard and holding a tray of food.
Jean sighed upon getting a proper look on Y/n's face. Her eyes are empty, dark circles evident under her eyes and it's also swollen from crying, it's also evidant that she lose weight from the stress. Jean saw the breakfast he bought for Y/n earlier morning, she didn't eat, not even the glass of water.
"You need to eat." Jean said.
He placed the tray of food on the ground first to open Y/n's cell, then
he picked it up and walked in inside Y/n's cell. Jean placed the tray of food on the table, then he looked at Y/n.
"I'm not hungry, Jean." Y/n said in a low voice. "Just take it out. It'll just spoil here. I'll just sleep." Y/n added.
Jeam clenched his fists.
It's been a few days since Y/n have been like this, he understands why
Y/n's acting like this, but he worries for the h/c-haired lady. "Y/n...please."
He worries now that Y/n's not taking care of herself anymore.
It won't be impossible if Y/n falls sick because of what she's doing to herself.
Jean took the lunch he bought for Y/n then put it beside the h/c-haired lady.
He sat on the egde of her bed.
"Just a little bite, come on..." Jean said.
He took the bread and brought it close to Y/n's mouth, but the h/c-haired lady moved her face away.
"I told you...I'm not hungry."
Jean frowned. "Yeah. You're not. Now open your mouth and eat this bread."
Y/n shut her eyes.
She gently pushed Jean's hand away and went out of her bed, making Jean to sigh. The h/c-haired lady stood on the ground facing Jean. "Until when are you going to be like this? Look at you, Y/n...you're not looking good..."
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