What is this feeling?

my favorite things

My favorite things are my crushes, music, and spaghetti, I only have two crushes, and one has a boyfriend. My favorite things about them is how soft their hands are, how curly and smooth their hair is, how nice, welcoming, quiet, sweet they are, their style of drawing, how they stand, their eyes, their laugh, their smile, their style, everything about them... It's a shame they've been distant lately, and when they do text me I get butterflies in mt stomach, and I get so happy, but that's only for a minute because then I remember the rejection then I get sad, I want to text them but I don't want to annoy them because they might be busy and with the different time zones they could be sleeping so we only text late a night and late afternoon for me. I just wish they felt how I felt, and if they didn't reject me they would be stuck with the worst partner on earth, me, I'm annoying, i'm clingy, I need constant attention, ad the list goes on...