I was betrayed by myself. I promised I wouldn't fall in love again. What am I doing? Falling in love. The only outcome is getting hurt. When their around him I feel like I don't exist to them. When it's me and them I feel like they actually acknowledge me. I don't want to be ignored. I don't want them to be embarrassed of me. I am who I fucking am and if you don't like that, that's on you. I'm not one to be used. I'm not something to use when you feel bad for yourself. I'm doing this shit again. I either exist to them or I don't. I don't want to be around someone that when their around their other crush I don't exist. I have feelings too, believe it or not I have feelings too. Yesterday this person said the most bitchy thing. "L** probably doesn't like you." She said it in front of everyone. All I responded with was "you're probably right." Before that at lunch they asked me if I liked said person, I said yeah. Because I do like this person, but I don't want to be played or used. I'm a human who has feelings. I'm not good with feelings or identifying them but I have them.
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RandomThis is a story of me trying to identify my feelings and just my life with my roller coaster Of feelings such as body Dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, stomach issues and an Undiagnosed eating disorder. ⚠️THIS CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE⚠️
