THIS CHAPTER TALKS ABOUT AN EATING DISORDER!!! SKIP IF YOU THIS MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE!!!
This is very personal, food is a hard topic for me. I don't know what type of E.D. I have, I'll starve myself and then eat normal or over eat. Then I'll be fine for awhile. Then it starts over again. Since I've been back on my pills I've been barely eating, if I do eat I'm in excruciating pain mentally and physically. My stomach will hurt and I'll beat myself up. I hate it, I constantly get shit from my parents about it. Like "oh you're fat." Or "oh you're anorexic." It makes me feel bad about myself. You can count everyone of my ribs. Yet I don't feel skinny enough. Things have a huge affect on people. Saying shit like that can cause eating disorders. It can make people want to hurt themselves. I would know. Food is not my best relationship. I suck in every day that it hurts when I'm not sucking in. Don't do what I do, you are enough just the way you are. And if people make fun of you for it then their just jealous of how beautiful/ handsome you are. Love yourself you deserve it, it may be hard. But you'll get there.
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RandomThis is a story of me trying to identify my feelings and just my life with my roller coaster Of feelings such as body Dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, stomach issues and an Undiagnosed eating disorder. ⚠️THIS CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE⚠️
