I stayed the night at Sebastian's house 2 nights in a row but there's one part I can't seem to forget, the multiple times we cuddled. At one point I was holding him and then I laid him down on the bed and I was on top of him! Thinking about that makes me blush! He wrote a poem for me, I have a hard time expressing emotions and identifying how I make people feel, but he made me a poem, and I loved it, it was so sweet! It made me all warm and fuzzy inside, it means a lot to me! One time he was even sitting on my lap! God I can't stop thinking about him! I keep accidentally dead naming and mis gendering him, because around his family I have to use his dead name and mis gender him, I also have to do that around my grandma, it sucks alot, and I keep getting confused. I don't mean to! It just makes me feel really bad. I hope I didn't make him uncomfortable this weekend. I hope he had as much fun as I had, I miss him alot though, I know I'm going to have attachment issues. I just want to be back in his arms...
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RandomThis is a story of me trying to identify my feelings and just my life with my roller coaster Of feelings such as body Dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, stomach issues and an Undiagnosed eating disorder. ⚠️THIS CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE⚠️