MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING VENT AND TALKING ABOUT SUICIDE AND IMPLIED SELFHARM IF THOSE TOPICS WILL TRIGGER YOU SKIP THIS CHAPTER!!
School is about to start again and I don't want it to. Last year i got super depressed and lost who i was completely. i don't want that to happen again. I'm already having thoughts of suicide again. I was literally about to kill myself about ten minutes ago. I can never follow through. I'm such a fucking quitter, a PUSSY.I don't understand how ANYONE could love me let alone be proud of me. I honestly don't to go to school for multiple reasons. I have been harassed for four fucking months. i honestly want to kill myself so i don't have to live in fear. I've been told to kill myself multiple times. Why not make them happy. Make their lives better. Then i couldn't burden my parents any longer. FUCK! I wish i was in the 6th grade again, i didn't have a care in the world. If do kill myself then that means he will kill himself. Thinking about that makes me upset. OH MY FUCKING GOD! I don't know if i.m gonna make it through this school year. Fuck. You know whats sad, no one can hurt me more i hurt myself.
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RandomThis is a story of me trying to identify my feelings and just my life with my roller coaster Of feelings such as body Dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, stomach issues and an Undiagnosed eating disorder. ⚠️THIS CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE⚠️
