WARNING THIS CHAPTER TALKS ABOUT ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, SELF HARM, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
I thought I was getting better. I was talking more, I wasn't harming myself, I was getting up. What happened? Im tired, I'm sad, I don't want to talk, I want to hurt myself, I don't want to do anything. The water isn't hot enough anymore. I got mocked the other day, for not accomplishing my suicide attempt. I've been told "I'm really surprised you're still here, we've been waiting for you to kill yourself." Or something bc along the lines of that. Now I just keep thinking "what if I did succeed at my attempt?" "How happy would they be?" Today I went into my room and I saw pills that I was going to use to off myself a while ago, but I never did. I'm tired and all I do is want to cry. I was just fine why am I now feeling like this?
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What is this feeling?
RandomThis is a story of me trying to identify my feelings and just my life with my roller coaster Of feelings such as body Dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, stomach issues and an Undiagnosed eating disorder. ⚠️THIS CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE⚠️
