Should′ve never let you go

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea

I opened our large white front door and stepped into the long hallway. Steve was sitting in the living room. I didn't know if I should say something or go to him. I went straight up the stairs and sat down on our bed. I was thinking about what had happened lately and about what could still happen. I heard the hum of my cell phone. Anne had written to me this time and invited me "hey em, we'll celebrate a small garden party tomorrow, you and Steve are welcome to come!" What should go wrong? I agreed and was very happy to see everyone again. I used to be with Harry's family every day. It was almost my second home, Anne cooked for us and I had the best conversations with Gemma. She was like a sister to me. When I moved away with my parents, everything changed. The contact stayed away for a long time, but when I saw Anne again, it felt like back then. I decide not to talk to Steve today and not to tell him about the invitation until tomorrow. So I opened my wardrobe and looked for a big t-shirt to sleep in. I got a cup of tea to bed, because I couldn't fall asleep without it. Then I made myself comfortable and turned on a movie. A romantic love story where everything went perfectly. I wish so often that my life would go perfectly. But it just isn't like that, I put headphones in my ears at some point and opened Spotify. I pressed shuffle and listened to the music that penetrated my ears. I continued a song and there it was again... Harry... Fine line played in the background and I smiled into myself. Many were disappointed at his concert because he didn't play it, did he even noticed it? I think he gets a lot with what's going on there. I would love to see it from his perspective. I never wanted this fame,But he, he was made for it. I often wonder what would have happened if I had gone with him. Where would we have landed on the way? What if? An important question that I have to ask myself every day. I was happy for him when he told me about his plans, we were young. I never thought it would end like this. I listened to his voice and the music. His texts go under the skin. I got goosebumps and looked at his songs more closely. "Love of my Life" played next. Did he ever write a song for me? I was too curious. Maybe I would have the chance to ask him at some point, he is certainly busy with his tour. I really hope that I can meet him soon...