Should′ve never let you go

Perfect

Harry's view

I was now sitting on this plane. Away from everything. I had actually enjoyed being back home. But after this thing yesterday, I didn't even know what I wanted myself anymore. The disappointment was still huge and that's why I didn't go to my cell phone when emery called or sent me messages. I focussed on my tour and my fans. I loved being on stage, even though it was difficult for me on some days. I enjoyed travelling through new cities and countries and meeting many of my fans! It was always great to talk to them. Robyn was also always happy to be there and supported me behind the stage. We met at a small party, because we have mutual friends. I liked her, she was an incredible woman who really always stood by my side. But my feelings hung on emery. I couldn't and didn't want to forget her and just felt bad about Robyn, I should end the whole thing with her before it had too big consequences. Tonight I would meet her again in Italy and then I would have to tell her. I don't want to lie, of course I was afraid. Fear of how she reacts and what would probably buzz through the media afterwards, after all, I didn't know her very long and well.

Emery's view

I started crying. This moment overwhelmed me and my thinking, still these feelings of guilt in me. Harry pressed himself firmly against me "em, calm down. Everything will be fine," he said reassuringly and tried to take care of me lovingly. „Listen, what do you think about we order pizza? Or what you feel like doing?" Harry was right, I should eat something again and maybe I could finally realise a clear thought. So I nodded and Harry took his cell phone to look for a pizzeria. I didn't say anything, crying had exhausted me and I was just lying in Harry's arms. I needed this proximity right now. We ordered a pizza and then went down into the living room to wait. Again I stood in front of this large window with the incredibly great view. I turned to Harry, who watched me from the sofa. How I stood there and then opened the door. "Come, let's eat here" I smiled and went to the terrace, shortly afterwards the pizza came and Harry brought it outside, where I waited lying on one of the sun loungers. That was the first time in what felt like an eternity I ate something. Fully eaten, we lay on the lounger in enjoyed the sound of the waves. That was just around us. I said "Thank you" and turned to Harry, who looked at me in amazement. "Thank you for coming earlier," I added. „You have to stop thanking me for everything, if you love a person you do that" he smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek. "Let go in, it's getting cold" Harry smiled and rose off the couch. I followed him, with still red eyes because of the crying. In the living room he stopped and turned to me. "So...that means now....forget it" he turned away from me while I frowned. „You speak in puzzles H! What does what mean?" I shook my head questioningly while I took his hand. „Well...that we can both be together again now.... „Embarrassed, Harry scratched his head and looked at the floor. His behaviour was indescribably sweet and I couldn't help but smile. „I don't know....I think so. What do you think? Should we try it?" I smiled and stroked with my thumb over the back of his hand. What motivated me at that moment to ask Harry like that after I just came out of a 6-year relationship? Love. Infinite love for this man, let me do it. „Yes, em. We should, but there is a lot we need to discuss," Harry smiled and crossed his hands with mine when we dropped on the sofa. I looked at him attentively and waited for what would come from him now. "em, I hope you're sure what you're looking for 'Cause I'm not good at making promises, but if you like causing trouble up in hotel rooms. And if you like having secret little rendezvous, If you like to do the things you know that we shouldn't do
Then baby, I'm perfect for you
And if you like midnight driving with the windows down and if you like going places, we can't even pronounce If you like to do whatever you've dreamed about
Then baby, you're perfect
So let's start right now" he smiled and I just listened to him. I nodded "I can't wait" I answered. We should keep this secret with ourselves Okey? The paparazzi would not do us any good. But if you like cameras flashin' every time we go out and if you're looking for someone to write your breakup songs about Baby, I'm perfect" and again I nodded in agreement. Of course, the paparazzi would not do us any good. I trusted Harry unconditionally and he would know when it would be okay to make everything public. I just enjoyed being able to be with him. „May I fly with you next time?" I asked and leaned against him. „If you want that, I mean, you're my girlfriend now or not?" He smiled and kissed me on the head. „I think yes!"