Marriage, a Heartstopper Fan-fiction

Chapter 118 Drunk Charlie

Nicks perspective
I was a little worried about Charlie he usually gets too carried away and it seems like that's what's going to happen, he looks a little wobbly and giddy already. Tara sits us all down and it was Taos and Elles turn to go first. "First question what is Taos biggest pet peeve" Tao writes down on his piece of paper what the answer is and Elle guesses "When people are PDA or even just show the tiniest amount of affection in public" she says rolling her eyes. Tao jumps up and points his finger at Elle "Your going to make us loses the real answer was Nick, Nick is my biggest pet peeve" Everyone laughs and I slightly laugh too but I feel like everyone is laughing at me not with me, I know Tao likes to joke and tease but sometimes I wonder if he really is joking this "joke" of him not trusting me or liking me has been going on for years now it seems like he must not like me, I feel a frown growing on my face, then Charlie puts his hand on my shoulder and whispers into my ear not sounding sober but not sounding drunk ether just a little buzzed "Are you upset babe you look sad is it Tao i'm sure he's just messing around" I put on a smile and kissed him "I'm ok now that I have felt your lips on mine" I say with a wink he stands up saying "I'm getting another drink" before he could walk away I caught him by his wrist pulling him back down and on to my lap "Are you sure that's a good idea you seem pretty buzzed, don't you think you've e had enough " He shook his head "I'm fine I'll just have one more" he says getting back up again to get one, I see him take a shot and garb an already mixed drink in a red solo cup. he sits back down smelling strongly of alcohol. Tara then says Nick and Charlie your up. I tense up as she announces that, is he's sober enough for this. Tara then asks "who wants to answer the question and who wants to have the question about them" Charlie is quick to say "I will answer it" his words slightly slurred. Tara nods and proceeds to ask the question "What is Nicks favourite thing about you" I confidently write
His beautiful blue eyes and his caring personality he's so gentle he won't even hurt a spider he insists to take it outside, I love everything about Charlie Spring.
I have told Charlie over a million times these things so I was pretty sure he would get this right. "What's your answer Charlie" he stays silent for a few seconds before saying "I know he likes my eyes but I'm not sure there's anything really to like about me" he says slurring his words, I can see everyone's expression go blank and all eyes are on us. I grab Charlie and pull him into a hug "There's so much to love about you love you perfect" I say in a loving tone, I hate when he talks bad about himself. I kiss him on the head as he snuggles up to me. Tara and Darcy go and get there's right Tao and Elle got there's wrong and we got ours wrong because I apparently wrote too many answers down. I felt nervous as it was our turn again I noticed Charlie could barely sit up at this point, he has finished his drink and has had WAY to much. Tara asks who wants to answer and I say quickly "I think we'll forfeit" Charlie looks at me and if looks could kill it would be the one he gave me. "I'll answer it" he says and Tara nods and asks "What's your least favourite thing about Nick, and Nick what do think Charlie's least favourite thing about you is" I was upset now and angry this game was stupid and Charlie shouldn't be asked questions like this right now. I squint my eyes shut wishing I could just disappear when he starts to talk "I think Nick is AMAZING HES SO CUTE and adorable his clothes smell nice and his lips are perfect he's perfect" everyone says "Awe" except Tao, it was a cute moment until he rambled on some more I tried to stop him but it was too late "I'm not even close to good enough for Nick I'm so ugly and embarrassing I would be embarrassed to be seen with me in public I don't know how he puts up with me I can't even eat properly" his words were hard to understand and very slurred but as he started talking about his ED I through my hand over his mouth to cover it which I should've done sooner. Everyone was staring at him and I felt as if we were fish in a fish bowl. Charlie squirmed and tried to speak but I wouldn't let him I know he will regret what he's said and I don't want to add more to that list. "Happy birthday Darcy we love you a lot but I think I need to get him home" She smiled and ran over to hug us "Good idea he probably should be getting home" She said as she ruffled his hair. He stopped trying to talk so I took my hand off his mouth and when I did he said "I just want one more drink before we go babe" I tilted his chin to look at me "Don't you think you've had enough" he shakes his head "No one more" he holds up his index finger. I put my arm around him and lead him to the car "One more later how about that" Charlie agrees totally out of it. I eventually throw him over my shoulder he could barely walk straight as we got further down the path. Once we made it to the car I placed him in the passenger side and kissed him on the forehead before buckling him up. I started driving and can't help but let the sadness completely take over my body hearing him say those things about himself.

Authors Note
Why is self hatred such a shitty thing :((( i'm currently in a spiral of that right now frankly I feel everything I do or say is bad and I can't stop thinking this way idk.. I need a nick hug rn. But one thing I know right know is that I like this chapter and I like writing so i'm going to focus on that 😘😘 Love you night xx Commenting and voting supports this book and me so thank you ;)))) :p