for you: to you ✰ chanmin

𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘺-𝘰𝘯𝘦

二十一

a little digging:
2015

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Okay, maybe I cared just a little...

Maybe, just maybe, I thought about that letter you sent me─the one about the person you had a crush on─every time I lay awake at night.

Maybe...

I was curious! Okay? I kept the letter and I stared and stared at that name every single night, wondering who it was. Because I didn't recognise the name.

But now it all made sense.

Her name was Eunmi.

She was born in Korea, and then moved to Australia as a kid.

You met her at your school there. She was your first crush, and now she was your first girlfriend.

I should've felt proud of you as a friend, for earning yourself a partner, but that swirling feeling of jealousy was hard to swallow. Despite you turning on me, I still felt protective.

And I hated it.

I told myself that I wouldn't care─that I shouldn't. But I couldn't help but care.

I cared too much.

I managed to dig information out of other classmates who spoke to you more often than I did. I found out a few things worth noting, too:

1) Her family were super wealthy,
2) Her dad was your dad's boss at the car company,
3) Her mom was one of the many Korean mothers that your mom had in her circle of friends,
4) Her English name was "Emily",
And, my least favourite fact: 5) She was childhood friends with Sunhee.

I found out that last one through Felix, which reminded me about how Sunhee used to pick on him during Pre School. That made me hate her even more. But, to be fair, I always hated that girl.

Luckily, she had chosen to go to a different Secondary School to me, so I didn't have to see her stupid face all the time.

But every time she was brought up in conversation I would still remember when she labelled you as "Her Chan".

And, to be honest, it felt like you were becoming it.

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i'm bored, and i can't really be bothered to update my drafts today, so i'm updating fy:ty early lol

─jen