Seeking Gaston Lynx Esquivel

Chapter 59

I looked at the clock and it was almost 10 in the evening. May isang oras na rin mula ng magpasya kaming matulog. Pero ramdam kong malabo akong antukin. Pumikit ako ng mariin at muling napabalikwas sa kama.

Huminga ako ng malalim, hindi ko mapigilang balikan ang naging usapan namin ni Doc. Sanchez.

Gaston is a counselling psychologist. He didn't pursue industrial engineering. Why? And thinking about it, it is almost impossible.

Tumingin naman ako sa kisame ko. I grabbed my phone on the side of my bed. Is he still up at this hour? I could try.

Bumangon ako habang suot-suot ko ang makapal kong jacket hanggang tuhod. I wasn't wearing anything underneath and of course my thick pajama.

Nagpakawala ulit ako ng malalim hininga bago dahang-dahang lumabas ng kwarto ko. I am sure Auntie and Calyx are already asleep. Napagod sila pareho sa pamamasyal.

I tiptoed while going to the front front door even though it is impossible that I might wake them up with my normal walking. Muli, ay dahan-dahan ko ring binuksan ang front door at sinara ito.

Nang masara ko na ng tuluyan ang pintuan ay saka lang ako nakahinga ng maluwag. Pero napalunok naman ako ng malalim ng masilayan ko and front door niya. My heart started beating fast and hard again.

I walked and stop in front of his double door. Napatulala ako sa bell button. Nanginginig ang mga daliri ko habang nakahanda na ako itong pindutin.

I could do this. Hindi rin naman ako makakatulog mamaya kapag pinagpabukas ko pa ito. And I badly wanted to know his reasons. The behind of all of it.

With my eyes closed, I bravely push the bell button. Napaatras pa ako ng kaunti pagkatapos, I looked at his door nervously and with my uneasy eyes. My knees started trembling too.

Now, I am kinda regretting doing it now.

Pero lumipas siguro ang ilang minuto pero hindi ito bumukas. He might be asleep. Muli akong huminga ng malalim, hindi ko alam kung makakahinga ba ako ng maluwag o hindi.

Maybe I should talk about it tomorrow? Or maybe this is my sign that I should wait for him to casually talk about it.

Nagbaba ako ng tingin. I licked my lips then turned around. This probably isn't the time yet.

"Baby…" Napamulagat ako ng bigla kong marinig ang boses niya sa likod ko.

My knees trembled again and so did my insides. I turned around so quickly and saw him almost naked again.

Why is he in his boxer shorts again? Ang lamig ng Baguio! And what if I wasn't the one who were here? Ibabalandra niya katawan niya ng ganyang kasimple?

Lumapit ako sa kanya. He looked like he just finished showering. And it means that I didn't wake him up.

"Bakit hindi ka magdamit?" Medyo galit kong tanong. He might catch some colds too.

He stood in his front door like a model. Kahit na simpleng nakatayo lang naman siya, his appeal is just too much.

Ngumisi siya sa akin. "You miss me, huh? You wanna make out again? I'm ready!"

Ngumiwi ako sa mga tumatakbo sa isipan niya. He is full of energy, and I can't take it all of.

"I am here to ask a question." Bumalik ang kabang nararamdaman ko kanina.

Biglang nawala ang ngisi sa kanyang mukha at sumeryoso rin ito. He might have seen it in my face how nervous I was.

"What is it?" Seryosong saad na nito.