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|51|--- 𝙳𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗

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ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ'ꜱ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴀᴛ ᴀ ᴘᴀʀᴛʏ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀɴ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴡᴏᴜɴᴅ

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Like every other person every since I came back to school after a long time I have been sulking a lot and feeling a little bored and depressed. I am also deeply demotivated and have a lot of mood swings lately.

I just feel like murdering the people who annoy me, I have been losing my temper, sometimes I get the feel of why am I even living? It's not like they're gonna build a statue for me and worship me. I'm not worthy of anything.

I heard that these were sign of puberty and I can assure you its not. Its just me. If I did hit puberty why am I still 5'3'. I happy I grew an inch over the holidays though. Those pull-ups really helped.

If I ever feel completely alienated music really helps me but my phone died and there is no electricity in Hogwarts for me to charge and I can assure you wizarding music is not really that great.

Its been a week and I already have 6 pending assignments because I didn't feel like doing any. I am usually prompt in doing my work but I never really feel like it anymore. I used to get the satisfaction of studying and finishing my homework but now its just gone.

A person like me is honestly never satisfied with anything. But right now however I'm feeling is like I have ran out of fuel, stranded in a desert all alone with no gas stations nearby. The feeling of despair and helplessness.

What would happen if I die? That's just selfish.... and I'll agree that I'm very selfish but not in such a way I disappoint my parents like taking such hasty decisions.

I don't think things will ever work out for me.

At this moment I feel of going in search of a vampire and getting bit to escape from my life.

Exams, assignments, tests, studying all for nothing but DISAPPOINTMENT FAILURE AND UNNECESSARY THOUGHTS ITS ALL ON THE EDUCATION SYSTEM THE SAME SYSTEM WHICH DEFINED KILLING AND SUICIDE BAD WHEN THEY ARE THE MAIN REASONS ALL THESE STUFF ARE HAPPENING!

But I can't blame them really. If they aren't this strict atleast I don't think any of us would study or do anything.

SEE...

THIS IS THE PROBLEM 

EVERYTHING IS CONTRADICTORY AND ITS JUST SOOO ANNOYING WHEN I CAN'T CONCLUDE!!!!

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

                                                                XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX