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I can't write
down what I feel right now
because I am such an intense mix of emotions
and I don't know who I truly am.

I'm learning who I am
and who I'm not
and you are not
who I was meant to be
and I could never be
with you.

I've learned from my mistakes
but I still keep tripping
on my faults and my flaws
and I wonder if I'll ever find the perfection
I seek.

I can't write
because the right words don't come to me
in the middle of the night like they used to
my mind was flooded with words at one point
but now my vocabulary consists of only
the words I never spoke aloud.