Speak up already - Phan

Chapter 17

The following day was a week before Christmas. Dil would be leaving with Kei to go visit his family, but instead he was in bed left ill with tonsillitis, unable to move as it made him cough and feel like he was about to vomit.

"I'm so sorry." Dil said quietly, hiding under his covers unable to let Kei see him in this state.

Kei leant down, moving the covers and placing a kiss on Dil's forehead. "It's fine, get some rest okay? I'll see you before new years, try to enjoy this Christmas, take care of yourself."

Dil nodded, hiding his burning face even more in his covers as Kei left. Dil felt a pain strike through his chest knowing he couldn't spend this Christmas with Dil, but New Years would be different, he hoped.

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The following week was a blur, mainly consisting of staying in bed and eating, accompanies by watching old episodes of Spongebob. When Christmas Eve arrived, Dil had plans to stay indoors but knowing how much his parents wanted to be alone, he decided to go to the Christmas party at work. Supposedly loyal customers had been invited and the whole place was completely re-decorated. He had been given on option on coming or not but decided against it, now  last-minute changing his mind.

He had also managed to drag his two friends Megan and Lissa along too, who was at his house in an hour. They were all dressed casual but formal, him wearing a dark blue jumper and button up underneath. "I miss Kei." Dil mumbled as they walked to the shop.

Lissa smiled. "Hey, you're supposed to have fun, you've been cooped up for a while now."

Dil nodded. "But I miss him."

Megan patted Dil's back. "And I miss my bed."

They all laughed, the mood turning lighter as they mad their way to the nail shop. It seemed to be empty, only seeing Jin inside.

"Hi Jin." Dil smiled.

Jin looked up and nodded. "Hey guys,!you're a bit early. I was gonna go out and get some Christmas treats and food."

"Now? On your own? It's getting dark." Dil said worriedly.

"I'll go!" Lissa volunteered. "I'm craving chocolate.

Megan's eyes widened. "Ooo I want some snacks, i'll come too."

"I guess i'll stay and help decorate some more." Dil laughed at the two rushing out excitedly once food had come into the matter.

"I already decorated everything bunny." Jin smiled, yawning tiredly.

Dil shrugged. "Oh well."

"Oh yeah Dil! I got you a Christmas present!" Jin said, voice trailing with excitement. "It's a bit weird though."

"What is it?"

"Um, christmas nails? I know it's not normal for boys to do their nails but fuck gender roles. I thought it would look cute on you."

Dil raised an eyebrow, looking at his nails. "I've never gotten my nails done before. Oh well why not."

Jin squealed excitedly. "Sit down sit down! I love doing my friends' nails. I always use to force Ryan to let me pain his nails but he would take them off in a day. Promise you'll keep these on for at least a day!"

Dil grinned happily. "Of course!"

Jin started to blurt Christmas music from his phone, playing Pentatonix's Christmas album. Dil swayed to the music as he watched Jin using his full concentration on cleaning up Dil's nail edges and applying the fake nails. They were short so they could be passed off as natural and were black and red, resembling The Nightmare Before Christmas. Once he finished, Jin looked up and grinned widely. "Do you like it?!"

"It's really cute." Dil laughed.

"It suits you bunny!" He laughed just as Lissa and Megan finally returned with large Tesco bags full of treats.

"ITS SO FUCKING COLD!" Megan shrieked, taking her coat off once she entered the shop's warmth.

"We got everyone sweets!" Lissa exclaimed. "When will they be here?"

"Should be starting to arrive now." Jin said thoughtfully. "ALSO GUYS LOOK I DID DIL'S NAILS."

The two rushed over to peer over Dil's nails, awing in admiration. "This is so cool." Megan gasped. "Now Dil had everything better than me, even nails." She joked.

"You have to do my nails some time." Lissa announced.

"Same." Megan grinned.

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An hour flew by, consisting of lots of people arriving, majority of them Dil didn't know and bought alcohol too. Dil decided on not drinking however he must of not realised he took the wrong cup after pouring himself some Fanta but the taste being a lot more bitter than expected.

Dil was an easy drunk, after only a sip he felt tipsy, wandering through thee rooms looking for someone he knew. He couldn't find Lissa or Megan.

Jin was by the snacks table eating almost everything. From the corner of his eyes he spotted Dil, who was clumsily swaying side to side, eyes dazed.

He caught up to him as Dil made his way outside, worried that he would do something stupid. He placed a hand on Dil's shoulder. "Are you okay?"

JIN'S POV

Dil's stance steadied as he mumbled something I couldn't quite make out.

"You drunk aren't you? Come on, i'll take you home." I linked arms with Dil, starting to walk him home. "Why would you drink when you know you can't handle it you idiot." I smiled.

Dil shrugged clumsily. "Mmf, I need a hug, i'm tired."

I continued to drag Dil along with me.  "You're so cute bunny." I laughed. "But please walk a bit i'm not very strong to drag you. Plus it's late night and it's scary being out like this."

Dil started to drag his feet along himself, walking a bit slower behind me. I kept an eye on him to make sure he didn't fall behind. We reached his house at last.

I felt two arms wrap around my neck, feeling Dil's steady breath on my neck.  "D-Dil. This isn't funny a-anymore..." I tried pushing away from the younger boy, heart skipping faster and faster. His grip tightened.

"I-I told you...I want a huuuug." He slurred. I could smell the alcohol in his breath, squirming to get out of his grasp.

"Dil, you're a fucking a-annoying drunk." I stuttered weakly.

I felt his stomach press against my back, and something harder below him. I squirmed more once i felt cold kisses on my neck, managing to break free and push him apart. He steadies himself as I fell onto the floor. I looked up in fear, pointing at his house. "Go inside and sleep." I ordered, my voice cracking in fear and shock.

Dil skipped to his front door, able to clumsily unlock it and make his way inside.

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