Make Me Yours (Lost Star)

Route 23

We were silent the whole ride home pero ramdam ko na may gustong sabihin si Eos at pinipigilan niya lang ang kanyang sarili. Nakasandal ito habang may seryosong ekspresyon. His left hand is holding the steering wheel while the other is on his face. His thumb is under his chin and his forefinger is touching his lips.

Kung titignan ay parang may malalim itong iniisip. Kahit na diretso ang tingin ko sa labas ng windshield ay hindi nakakatakas ang pagsulyap sulyap niya sa akin bawat minuto.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat gawin. Seeing him with Sophia is not the problem. What bothers me is that I don't think I can go pubicly like that with him. Kahit anong gawin namin ay nakakasiguro akong lalagyan ko iyon ng limitasyon sa takot na matigil na lang bigla ang kung anong mayroon kami.

I will be unfair to him. Ngayon pa lang ay unfair na ako. And no matter how understanding he is, magsasawa siya panigurado. Ngayon pa nga lang ay nagsisinungaling na ako sa kanya. Paano pa kapag tumagal kami?

I'm not jealous of Sophia. I am jealous of the fact that if it's her that he loves, he will get what he deserves and what he needs. There's no need of hiding. There's no need for lies. They will be free...

Hindi ko nga alam kung si Eos ba ang pinoprotektahan ko ngayon o ang sarili ko.

Just thinking about the things that I can deprive him from makes my heart clench. Ngayon pa lang ay nasasaktan na ako habang iniisip ito.

Eos is a wonderful man. Siya iyong dapat ay ipinagmamalaki at hindi itinatago. At siya iyong taong hindi dapat sinasaktan...

Tumigil ang kanyang sasakyan sa tapat mismo ng aming bahay. Hindi ako lumabas. Ayaw gumalaw ng katawan ko. Nakalock pa ang mga pintuan pero pwedeng pwede ko namang buksan iyon ng mag-isa.

We stayed inside his car. I just felt the need to. Walang umiimik sa amin. I can hear the loud beats of my heart and his heavy breathing. I'm even afraid that he might hear my heart pounding inside my chest because of the silence.

"I'm dying to know what's going on that pretty little head of yours, Empress." He dared break the silence between us. "We both know that you're not okay."

Hindi ako agad sumagot. I slowly nodded my head. Pareho kaming nakatingin sa harapan. I saw him look at me on my peripheral vision.

"I'm just... tired."

"Uh huh..."

Hindi siya naniniwala. Ramdam ko 'yon sa kanyang tinig. Sa tingin ko nga'y mas kilala pa niya ang sarili ko kaysa sa akin. I'm not good at lying to other people but I'm so good at lying to myself.

"Am I clear with my intentions here, Empress? Should I repeat my feelings to assure you?"

I can hear the frustration in his voice. I faced him. I gave him a smile as I touch his face.

There's no need to feel that way, Aeolus.

"I believe in you." But I don't believe in myself...

"Good... because I'm all yours, my queen."

Bumigat ang paghinga ko. His gentle voice made my heart go wild. His gray eyes showed a darker shade as he looked at me intently.

"Are we good?" He asked. Tumango ako agad.

I know that he thinks that I'm threatened of Sophia. Kaya gusto niyang i-assure ako. Maybe he thinks that I'm upset because of her. I won't correct him... I will let him think that way...

He pulled me towards him until I felt his lips on my forehead. His lips lingered there. I closed my eyes and let myself feel the warmth of his lips on my skin.