If people were created with easy to understand instructions,
like how to build a house or put together a basketball hoop,
or how to fix the drippy faucets that annoy you to all kinds of cursed ends,
I would have never known you, you would have never met me, we would never have been.
you see I am scared of everything you can think of and much more,
like dying, living, breathing too hard, losing my breath and not being able to get it back,
like losing my mind ( okay what mind? I hear you say, smiling.)
I know it's small but it's there, look hard honey, yeah I am smiling back.
like being wrong, being right and feeling wrong, being taken for granted, being the one who takes the ones I love for granted, being too nice, not being nice enough.... and so on and on.
While you with your tongue of razors and your coat of armor you wear with the badges you won from all the fights you battled your way to victory stand in my road and show me ...
you aren't afraid- you make the fear, like a kitchen pot of stewing vegetables marinating in the spices and sauces.
funny odd thing it was when I seen the danger in your eyes I ran to it,
wanted to feel it more than I ever wanted anything, the itch of poison ivy,
Inside of me growing, the more angrier I seen you become the safer I felt.
Maybe I knew if I could get you to love me, If I could just get you to need my touch,
Then I wouldn't fear anything anymore, nothing could hurt me if you were there with me,
so when you took my heart and ripped it out, set it on fire and smoked it into your lungs,
I died and came back to life but not once through it all was I ever afraid,
Till you left, then the fear came back.
JE LEEST
Climbing Up Out Of The Ashes
PoëzieA Poetry Collection About The Dark Side Of Falling In Love With The Wrong Person And Making Your Way Out Of The Fire...Breath by Breath...Exhaling The Smoke & Breathing In Fresh Air Again. #100poemsin100days challenge beginning August 21- November 2...
