Soaked

45. Another Night to Remember

  I grabbed onto the remote as I plunged deeply into my warm bed. "We don't have to watch The Fault in our Stars you know." I threw him a small smile as he looked around the room. "What kind of movies do you watch?" I all of a sudden just had a realization.

Oh my god. Azazel's the second boy that's ever been inside my room. Not that it's important but Xavier hasn't even been in here. Xavier always ended up in my kitchen and living room but never my actual room.

It's probably because every time Xavier and I are out it's always us doing something super random and interesting. Still cliché but Xavier makes everything feel like a movie for me.

Oh god I miss Xavier so much it's not even funny. Xavier should be able to be in my room all the time. Xavier should be with me all the time!

Do I even want a break or not?

No I did. I needed this break.

But how long am I going to wait to feel ready, if I even ever do feel ready..

Would Xavier be willing to even wait for me? He shouldn't have to. He can easily just find another girl better than me in all ways in 3 secon-

Why am I this mentally disorganized?

"Are you okay?" He slowly walked towards me, his snowy complexion being defined as he got closer.

"Yea sorry I just remembered something. So yea my bad! What movies do you watch?" His answer was quickly interrupted by a loud knock on my door.

What now!?

Tanner's voice appeared. "Hey Azazel if your in there, Belial and I are gonna change if your looking for us!" His voice quickly disappeared.

Azazel looked up as his mouth opened. "I should get changed also, I'll be right back." He began to leave as I proceeded to talk.

"Hey." I let out. "I don't want it to seem like I'm taking you away from your friends, you don't have to hang out with me." I anxiously laughed.

"Don't worry about it." He nodded his head at me. "I would actually rather eat ice cream with you than hang out with them." His deep and hesitant voice kept ringing through my head as he quickly left my room.

Crap, crap, crap. I viciously fed myself with ice cream as I thought about what movie we should watch. I feel like if we watch The Fault in our Stars he'll end up seeing me cry, and it's already enough I look like a zombie from yesterday, I don't wanna look like a depressed zombie!

My mind shuffled as my remote raced through a bunch of Netflix shows and movies.

Orange is the New Black

Good show but not watchable with Azazel.

Haters Back Off

Already watched.

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt

Already watched.

The Human Centipede

Okay that's gross, The Fault in our Stars isn't even on Netflix.