Conor Maynard imagines

Guilt

Do you ever get it, when your in the middle of an argument and anger takes over your whole body you can't even control what your saying? That exactly what happened to me last night.

I remember screaming "I hate you Conor why am I even with you" as loud as I could and guilt took over my body as those words fell out my mouth.i remember the look in his eyes

The look of hurt, sadness and the look that I had gone to far, and I knew I had as soon as I said them.

Anger said said it not me.the argument took over me and I couldn't stop myself from saying what I did.but he wasn't so kind either, but he didn't scream he hated me.

I really regret it because since then he hasn't spoken to me,he stayed at his brothers last night.

I remember him looking at me once more before running down stairs.i just stood there not moving.but he came back up with his jacket and shoes on.keys, wallet and his phone in his hand and walked towards the door

I wanted to call his name but I couldn't speak.i felt so sick at what I said to him.not even the part where I told him I hated him or that I question why we're dating but the things I yelled before that.

God I'm such an idiot. But I'm only human and humans make mistakes but I know I went to far.

I know when I finished the sentence I messed up.what kind of person yells that to there boyfriend?

He's been nothing but amazing to me and here I go, breaking his heart by saying something that isn't true.

Every call goes to voicemail and every text goes unread.

There's no point in me going over to jacks because I know jack won't let me in.he will want to help is brother which I understand

But then the door opened, I heard footsteps walk down the stairs and towards mine and Conor's room

I sat up on the bed pleading that it's Conor and not just one of the boys

The door opened to reveal Conor.his eyes were red and puffy and his hair was a mess, he looked at me before putting his keys and wallet on the dressing table before going to leave the room

"Conor" I say but he ignored me and carried on walking upstairs.

I sighed as I got of the bed and walked upstairs. Conor was in the kitchen opening a beer and taking a drink

"Conor please" I mumble, but he kept his head down not wanting to make eye contact and I don't blame him.

He downed his beer and put it in the bin before walking past me and nudging my shoulder as he did

"Conor please listen to me" I say and he stopped walking,and turned to look at me

"I'm sorry okay" I say "I really really am, I didn't mean it I love you A lot and...anger just took over me, I want to be with you of course I do,I don't hate you Conor, you mean everything to me and I'm sorry for saying what I did I didn't mean-" I say but Conor walked over to me and cut me of by kissing me

His hand gently placed on my cheek,as I slowly put my hands on his waist, he gently fit his bottom lip between mine, and moved slightly but not breaking the kiss as his tongue gently rolled against mine

"Conor" I mumble into the kiss,as he slowly pulled away resting his for-head on mine "do you forgive me" I ask

Conor smiled before pecking my lips "of course" he mumbled his forehead still against mine.i smiled back before leaning up to kiss him

"I love you" Conor mumbled

"I love you to"