SHITS AND GIGGLES

song..lyrics...again...vent

My teas gone cold,
I'm wondering why I got out
Of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
Even if I could, it would all be grey
Put your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not
So bad, it's not so bad
......
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep about it and your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without her

Have you ever love somebody so
Much you would give an arm for?
Not the expression, but an
Actual arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their
Armor
......

(Depression)
"Jazzy, I know your in there, so where? Come here, talk to me, sit here, pull up a chair..."
AH
No, I told you, leave me the fuck alone,
Will you?
"But I'm here to rebuild you"
But I already killed you!
"But Jazzy, we were meant for each other  think about your
Mother?"
Yeah, so what of her?
"Well, think of what she did to
You and your little brother!.."
Fuck you motherfucker!
I had you beat
"No, remember, I was playing
Possom!"
....
Fuck this mirror!
"I'm not in the mirror I'm inside you! Let me guide you!"
....
"Lose your best friend from school,
Your crush too,
Don't even know if your brothers
Even like you
Come off break, can't even sleep at night
With out NyQuil"
....

Lately, I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?...
I'm reaching out for you..
I'm just so fucking depressed
I can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I just need to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, I took my lumps
Fell down and got right back up but
I need that spark to get psych back up
In order of me to pick the mic back up
I don't know how, why, or when
How I got into this position I
Am in
I'm starting to feel distant again
So I just decided to pick
This pen up and make an
Attempt to vent
But I just can't admit or that
I can't come to grips
With the fact I might be done
With this
I need a new outlet, I know
Some shit is so hard to swallow
But I can't sit back and wallow in
My own sorrow
But I know one fact,
I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
....
But don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just say
True to you
I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything looks so tense
And gloom
I almost feel like
I gotta check the
Temperature of the room
Just as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it
Opens a door of conversation like I want that
I'm not looking for extra attention
...
Laugh at every joke I crack
Half of them ain't even funny
"Jazzy, your so funny man,
You should be a comedian,
God damn!"
Unfortunately, I am
But I hide behind the tears of a clown
.....

..
It goes in, in, out through the mouth
Breathing exercises I will never
Figure out
Till I am running in circles, or
Walking in circles, or
Crawling in circles, or
Lieing on the ground
....

You say "I hate you" and you mean it
You mean "I love you" sounds fake
It's taken me so long to figure that out
I used to do anything for the
Taste but now I would do
Anything to get the taste out of my mouth
...
I am an artist, and my mind doesn't work the way I want it to
....
There is a map in my room,
I got big, big plans
But I can see them falling through
Almost feel them falling through
The palms of my sweaty hands
.....

There's comfort in the bottom of
A swimming pool
I'm holding my breath for you
There's no doubt that if you could to crack my ribcage open
And pull my heart right through
....
I been around long enough
To know that good things never
Last
They never
Last
There's comfort in silence
In a living room
.....