Despite what you say M, I know it's useless. I can feel the tears gathering as anger threatens to control my emotions. I know what I want, yet it'll never happen.... What's the point in wishing on a star that will always be out of reach?
Why couldn't he have lived here? Closer to me? Why do I have feelings? This is dumb, but I still care about it. I care too much. I care more than I should. And rather than ignoring his message I should answer. Yet I'm afraid because I know I'm right. I know that it's temporary, but what if I don't want that?
What if I want to feel loved and safe? What I am "Searching for love but not for sleep"? Is that such a bad thing....? I know it's no love because us teenagers don't know what love is, at least that is what I've been told countless times by adults.
I'm becoming defeated...
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry.
I'm so fucking sorry!
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Poems and Rants Of A Killjoy
PoetryAll of my thoughts written down in here... This is a place for those who need a safe haven of sorts. Made by one of your own. I hope you can learn from my mistakes. "Come one, come all to this tragic affair..." -Dead! By My Chemical Romance [ON-GOIN...
