Love Of My Life

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YOU GUYS Writing is literally my favorite part of the day lol even if I don't update every day, I write every day. Writing this book makes me really want to further pursue writing as my full time career because I really want to publish a book or two. 

Also I am so excited for what I have in store for you all in this book. Hopefully you like it lol xx although this chapter is a bit of a filler but the next is popping don't worry

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Aria

"I'm excited to see you," Ben says through the phone. I smile and lay down on our bed, missing his warmth next to mine.

"I'm excited to see you too," I say faintly.

"Only a couple more days, my dear,"

I sigh. "I know. I just haven't seen you in ages," I complain.

Ben left to go film almost three months ago. It's been torture without him, but as the days go on the easier it gets. We talk regularly, or as regular as we can get.

The first couple nights were the hardest. My nightmares came back and left me anxiety stricken during the days. Luckily I have amazing friends to help me. Lucy has stayed over many nights, as have Rufus, Luke and Jimmy. Gwil has come over a couple times, as has Rami. I haven't seen Joe or Allen at all but we keep in touch. Joe sees Ben frequently and likes to send me pictures of him. He also mentioned how Ben was panicked because he was buying me something but refused to tell me what it is. Ben was livid when he found out, but also refused to tell me what it is. I guess I'll have to wait.

"I know, love," Ben tells me. "But when we get back w-"

"Oh Bennie!" Joe's voice rings in the background. 

Ben sighs heavily after having been cut off. I snicker. 

"Yes?" he calls back. 

"Tell Aria I say hello!" Joe shouts. 

"Tell Joe I say hi as well," I say. 

"You're so loud she can hear you," Ben says with a laugh. "She also says hi," 

I glance at my clock. It's 10 am my time, so it's 2 am Ben's. 

"I should let you go," I say. 

"You don't have to," Ben says, followed directly by a yawn. I smile. 

"Go get some sleep. We can talk later," I tell him. 

"Okay, Ari. I love you,"

"I love you too," I say, and then we exchange goodbyes and hang up. 

I lay in bed for a little while longer, just staring at my ceiling and thinking about the upcoming days. The Bohemian Rhapsody premiere is very soon and I'm very stressed about it. The realization that all our hard work had finally come together and is going to be exposed for everyone to see it both intimidating and exciting. 

I take a deep breath and remind myself: what would Dad do? He would live for this. He would own it, and make the situation fabulous no matter the outcome. I need to stop wallowing in sorrow and start living. 

I sit up abruptly, and proceed to get ready for the day. It takes me all of about an hour. Just brush through my hair and apply light makeup before throwing on an outfit. 

I've been trying to take Tigerlily's advice and channel Dad through my outfits. I haven't necessarily been copying his extravagant looks, but I have been trying to wear more bold and confident looks. It's helped honestly with my confidence. 

My phone rings and I frantically stumble over to it.

"Hello?" I say into it. I hold it to my ear as I walk to my jewelry box on my dresser, looking for one of my favorite rings. I frown when I can't find it.  

"What are you doing right this moment?" I hear Rami ask on the other line. 

"Nothing really," I respond, abandoning my jewelry box to sit on the edge of my bed. "What's up?"

"I'm outside,"

"What?"

"I'm literally outside right now,"

I knew I shouldn't have given him the code to get through the gate. I had just changed the locks and everything and just had to give him, and some of my other friends, the new codes. For emergency purposes might I add.

I hold my phone to my ear as I rush downstairs and to the front door. I whip it open and sure enough, Rami is standing there. We both hang up simultaneously.

"This is a surprise," I say. 

"Would you like to go get lunch?" he asks me with a smile. 

"Sure," I tell him, returning his smile right back. 

...

"So how are things?" Rami asks once we are settled and our order is taken at this little restaurant downtown. It's right on the water and the sight is beautiful. 

"They're good," I tell him. I take a sip of my water. "I'm nervous for the premiere. And excited,"

"Oh me too. This is the most on the line acting role I've ever had," 

"You did amazing though. I know you haven't seen the final project, but trust me. It's stunning," 

Rami smiles. "Thanks, Aria,"

"So tell me, Rams, how's Lucy?" I ask.

Rami blushes slightly. "She's good. I didn't think I could fall for someone so hard,"

"That's really cute," I tell him. I lean forward slightly in my chair. 

"You, me, Lucy, and Ben should go on a double date," Rami tells me.

I've never been one for double dates really. They're kind of awkward. But it would be with some of my closest friends so maybe that would make it slightly better.

"Maybe one day," I say.

"How is Ben anyways?"

I sigh. "He's good. We talked earlier. It's been a while since I've seen him," I laugh bitterly. I look away from Rami briefly to see a bird flying in the air, circling around before joining a flock. 

"He's coming for the premiere right?" Rami asks me. 

I nod. "Yeah he'll be getting a couple days off from filming to come. Then he has to go straight back," 

Rami looks confused but then realization covers his face. "So he won't be going to Japan with us?" 

I shake my head. "Nope," I say, popping the 'p'. "He's going to be missing a couple press tours,"

Rami looks distraught. "The whole band won't be together then," he says, quietly. My heart aches. 

"Acting comes with a price unfortunately," 

"That it does," Rami agrees. "That's one of the things I've learned over the years,"

Our waitress brings out our food and we begin to eat and make other conversation. I've grown really close to Rami. I've always been close with him, but especially recently. He's like my brother. 

As I sit with Rami and we spend the next couple of hours together, I find it hard to picture my life without him. It's been more than two years since we've known each other, which isn't a lot of time in reality, but I've never really had a constant friend that long. This whole cast has become my family. 

And on top of that I've reconnected with Rufus, Luke and Jimmy. Even Tigerlily has come back in my life. I feel like everything is falling into place.

But at the same time, I'm absolutely terrified for what the future holds. 

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Not my best chapter, but as we wind down on the book now, the future chapters should be significantly more interesting (I hope lol)