When I wake up, I have a headache from the crying. I sit up and look around. The apartment is dark and quiet. I dig through my purse for my phone. It is 4:12 a.m. I have several text messages and five missed calls. I read my messages, all say "I am sorry, I love you" and are from Slash. I listen to the one voice message that is on the phone.
"Baby, please, come home. I fucked up, I know. Please, Wynnie, come back...."
I wrap my arms around myself. What am I going to do? I can not raise a baby around that. He promised no drugs. And to see him there watching my sister have sex with his friend. That is beyond gross. No, I am furious, I am not calling him.
With the blanket that lindsey must have left out for me, I lay back down in the couch. I rub my hand over the baby bump, feeling my sweet baby moving around only brings more tears. There has to be a way to fix this and I need to figure out what that is.
I finally drift off to sleep and awake when I hear Lindsey and Axl talking in the kitchen. I go in and get a glass of juice. They are wrapped around each other, all lovey and cute. So in love. Makes me miss my Slash even more. Without saying a word I go back to the couch. They follow and start asking questions. I explain to them what happened and they are upset about all I am going through.
Lindsey is kind enough to tell me I can stay as long asI need to. I feel so sad, as this is not where I want to be, yet grateful to have a place to stay. I spend most of my day on Lindsey's couch. I sleep, I cry, then repeat. I stay there for five more days, without hearing a word from Slash. No calls, no texts, no visits. This leads me to what I think is the obvious decision.
I don't want to raise this baby all alone. So I make a phone call that I dread.
"Hello" she answers on the second ring.
"Momma," I start t cry. "Everything here is all messed up. Can I come home?" I break down sobbing. I wanted to make it. I wanted to be here, with the man I love. But he is on a path of destruction, and now I have the baby to think of, to protect. So here I am, crawling home like a failure.
"Sweetie, of course you can," she says, soothingly.
"I will be there by the end of the week," I say, before hanging up.
My next call is to the diner to tell them I am going back to Ohio. The manager tells me if I ever need a job in this town again, there will be one there for me.
I tell Lindsey and ask her to do me a big favor. I need my clothes from the apartment. She agrees to go get them for me.
Two days later, I am sitting in a rental car in my parent's driveway. They live in a suburb of Cleveland. I hate it here. I left the car Slash had given me outside of his apartment. The first thing I did here was get my cell phoine number switched to something local. Basically, I took away any chance of him finding me. My heart is broken. Torn between the man I love and my need to protect my child.
With a big sigh, I climb out of the car and waddle up the front steps. I am greeted by family dog, and the smell of sauerkraut cooking, with a lingering smell of chocolate chip cookies. Instantly I feel like a little kid again.
"Well this is gonna suck balls," I mumble as I drop my bags in the entryway.
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Torn
RomanceTorn. Torn between two men. Torn between the man she loves and his addiction. Torn between her own life and her love for her sister. It seems around every corner, Wynn is torn.