The Ruined Rainbow

CHAPTER 39

Quote:  Tumhare Ishq se bani hoon main ... Pehle Zinda thi ... ab jee rahi hoon main

I am made from your love ... first I was alive ... now I am living

- Aashiqui 2 (2012)

Ayesha

When I didn't reciprocate his invitation for a hug but just gaped wordlessly at him, he sighed.  I still am not able to believe that he is here. Sahil is here. Dressed in a blue T-shirt and black jeans, he looks damn hot. And he walked into my room.

I closed the door and leaned on it,

"What are you doing here?" I ask

"My Ayesha missed me a lot, and so I had to be here at any cost." He said, pausing in his act of surveying the room, "Well, you have already packed your luggage, not bad, we will have extra time tomorrow then, "

"But-" I say in a weak voice, my voice quivering because of the lie, "I am leaving after-after a week!"

"You are a very lousy liar, you know, " Sahil said in a serious tone, giving my face a perfect opportunity to go red.

"Well, um, um--" I stuttered, walking towards the bed to sit there, "How did you get in here?" I attempt to change the subject to ease my embarrassment.

"Told your guard, that I am your distant cousin, who has travelled all way from the Patna to see my aunt who is in her deathbed and want to go to her with you, and yes, I was wearing glasses," Sahil clarified.

"And he believed that?" I asked in disbelief.

"Well, yes?" Sahil said, and then walked towards the wardrobe so that he was diagonally facing me. He tilted his head slightly and put his head on the wall and looked at me as I stared back at him in the eyes.

We both stared into each other's eyes, a lot of emotions passing on our face. A feeble smile appeared on my face, and he continued to look at me, as I'd searching me. A comfortable silence engulfed both of us.

I stood up from the bed and walked a step closer to him, but in a quick speed, he covered the distance between us and hugged me tightly. I, immobile at first, took my arms and wrapped it around his neck, returning the embrace.

I felt safe and secure, wrapped in his chest, and he buried his face on my neck. I smiled against his chest.  After a minute, he put his chin on my shoulder and whispered,

"I missed you."

"I missed you too. "

We stay like that for a long minute, a whirl of happy emotions surrounding me. Sahil had returned. No way, was he leaving me alone now, and nor am I.

My stomach churned at the thoughts of Sahil. These months, not a single day had passed without me thinking about him and my feelings for him. My emotions were more than just like, and I was falling for him. Harder and harder, and before I knew it, I had fallen for him completely. 

Should I confess my feelings for him?

He broke the hug and grinned at me, and I gave a half-hearted smile.  What if he laughs at me and makes fun of me? Or even worse, what if he breaks the friendship between us, saying he doesn't want a romantic inclination? And everyone knows that he was madly in love with Rhea, so what if he wants to get back to her, and me confessing now make things awkward for both of us?