Borahae (BTS reverse harem)✔️

Black Swan

Text to Joonie, KSJ, Yoongs, Hobi, Jm, Tae, JK:

Hi babies. If you're reading this then that means you're done with your last performance. I am so, so proud of each of you. You're amazing.

Also, if you're reading this, you've realized that I'm gone.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

You will never understand how much this hurts me...how much this is ripping me apart. But I can't keep doing this to you. I can't continue to make you compromise who you are and what you were born to do. And while I may have been born to love each one of you with my entire being, you all were born to be artists. You were born to perform. You were born to touch millions upon millions with your message. And being with me tarnishes that message. You've all worked too hard. I won't let everything you've built be destroyed by rumors and speculation.

I can't let that happen.

You still have so much more to do. But you can't reach new heights with me in your life. Not the way you're destined to. Not the way you deserve.

I know this seems selfish of me. But I promise you...this is killing me. God, it's killing me. You have no idea. If the attacks were just aimed at me, I'd take it. But I can't let them come for you. Without me, they have nothing. Without you, I have nothing. But you will still have ARMY. They love you. They cherish you. They'll continue to support and care for you like they always have. That's why I know you'll be ok. After all this...it will be ok. Just give it time and everything can go back to normal.

I hope you know that me leaving has absolutely nothing to do with how I feel for each of you. You could never fully grasp my love for the 7 of you. There isn't a word to describe it. No measure of time or intensity. It exists within the marrow of my bones and in every single cell in my body, so much so that I can literally feel the agonizing pain of my heart breaking inside my chest right now. So please don't think that this is just an excuse to leave. It's not. I don't want to go. I never want to be without you. But I have to. You need to fly, to be fearless, to be free. I can't hold you back anymore. You'd resent me. You'd resent the fans who disapprove of me. And I'd rather you hate me for leaving you than hate me for keeping you from being who you are.

You won't find me so please don't try to come after me. It's not safe. There's a protest outside the stadium and... I don't want to be found. I'm not strong enough to push you away yet. So please, let me go. It will be better this way. It was how it was always meant to be.

I love all seven of you more than anything on this planet. And I'll always love you. I swear it. I will never find another Kim Namjoon or another Kim Seokjin or another Min Yoongi. I will never, ever be able to replace Jung Hoseok or Park Jimin. I will never move on from Kim Taehyung or Jeon Jungkook.

Never.

You all were my dream, and I got to live it. And for that, I am thankful. I am eternally grateful for your love, your wisdom, your compassion, and your strength. Thank you for letting me into your lives and showing me what love is. Thank you for setting the bar so devastatingly high that no one else on earth could compare. You were—you are—my soulmates. And I can't imagine loving anyone else but the seven of you for the rest of my life.

Please take care of yourselves. Eat well. Get lots of rest. Be kind to yourselves and each other. Take some time to do the things that you love. Go to all the places you wanted to show me and eat all the foods you wanted to feed me. Continue to be the gentle, caring, brilliant, generous men I fell so deeply in love with. And be happy. It may not seem easy to grasp now, but it will be one day. I want that for each of you. That's all I've ever wanted.