Keels: I'm torturing myself Why am I doing this to myself?
Danneel: What are you doing, KJ?
Keels: Crying I was flipping through channels and out of all the frikken episodes of Once Upon a Time, one is playing that Sebastian is in. It triggered me
Danneel: Awww, Sweetie 😭 Change the channel don't watch it
Keels: I did Now that got me looking through my phone just look at how happy we were! This was one of the last pics we took together before I found out
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Danneel: Delete them Don't do that yourself
Keels: I cant bring myself to do so
Danneel: Have Khloe delete them
Keels: She would if I let her
Danneel: Exactly Isn't it over between you two?
Keels: Yes I ended it but my heart is confused
Danneel: How could it be confused? Sebastian did hurt you and you left like you should've
Keels: True I should hate him for what he done even if it wasn't purposefully. He broke me. He won't stop telling me he will fix it and I dont want him to. I dont trust him anymore however I never loved anyone like him. It kills me that he done this because he shouldn't have. My heart wants me to punch him yet I also want to hug him to make this pain go away. I am trying so hard to stay on the side of my heart that wants to punch him. I still love him and I hate myself for that. It was so easy to stay away from past relationships. It doesnt help that he keeps texting me. He wants to see me so bad. I dont want to see him. I am afraid of what I would do; break down or hug him. I have to see him soon though when we film and of course my scenes are with him.
Danneel: Okay I see how you are confused but you don't trust him?
Keels: No Idk I don't think I can ever again
Danneel: I feel like that is your answer Don't over think it and dont go back to a man you dont trust. Be strong woman! It sucks that you are forced to see him. Avoid him if you can I guess
Keels: I know
Danneel: I wish you could come here to Texas get away from him all together and see Gabriella and Samwise
Keels: Me too! I don't want to film this movie anymore
